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Monday, August 06, 2007, 8:03 PM
Sometimes, I just think I dream too much. Too much of a life that I'm too damn used to. I'm really fickle-minded. I guess I inherited that from an old friend, haha.
Usually, during those hour-long mrt or bus rides alone, other than listening to the radio, all I can do is think about my whole life. It's good I guess, to think once in a while, but not EVERY SINGLE DAY. Life will be full of insecurities and disappointments if you did that. I know, I've tried.
Every single day, I would think about something. Could've started from anything that pops up in my head. Like whether I can really get into Design School next sem, or should I just go get a motorcycle license next year even though my mom disapproves of it. Or stuff like when should I start looking for a girlfriend(hah), should I get Oakley sunglasses, blablabla. But it always ends the same every single time I start thinking. It always ends at the point where I realized, as if I could understand everyone in the world, and life itself, unaffected by feelings or biased thinking.
Once again, I ask myself. How long should I hide in this shell? As long as everyone's happy?
I just really wonder sometimes, about the few people who know who I really am, and the rest who laughs at that orange-haired kid, the rest who I love entertaining. Hah.
Hmph.
Sometimes, all I want is just for everyone to recognise my good intentions.
And not have that twisted notion like "oh, he's just like any other guy. insensitive, muscle-brain, oogle's at girls all day, watches soccer and dont really care the shit about the whole universe".
p.s. I've been up for 33 hours.
THANK YOU COCA-COLA! Caffeine is TEH sex. hahha.
Damn, I'm so gonna age faster. -.-Labels: Re-discovering Myself
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Monday, August 06, 2007, 8:03 PM
Sometimes, I just think I dream too much. Too much of a life that I'm too damn used to. I'm really fickle-minded. I guess I inherited that from an old friend, haha.
Usually, during those hour-long mrt or bus rides alone, other than listening to the radio, all I can do is think about my whole life. It's good I guess, to think once in a while, but not EVERY SINGLE DAY. Life will be full of insecurities and disappointments if you did that. I know, I've tried.
Every single day, I would think about something. Could've started from anything that pops up in my head. Like whether I can really get into Design School next sem, or should I just go get a motorcycle license next year even though my mom disapproves of it. Or stuff like when should I start looking for a girlfriend(hah), should I get Oakley sunglasses, blablabla. But it always ends the same every single time I start thinking. It always ends at the point where I realized, as if I could understand everyone in the world, and life itself, unaffected by feelings or biased thinking.
Once again, I ask myself. How long should I hide in this shell? As long as everyone's happy?
I just really wonder sometimes, about the few people who know who I really am, and the rest who laughs at that orange-haired kid, the rest who I love entertaining. Hah.
Hmph.
Sometimes, all I want is just for everyone to recognise my good intentions.
And not have that twisted notion like "oh, he's just like any other guy. insensitive, muscle-brain, oogle's at girls all day, watches soccer and dont really care the shit about the whole universe".
p.s. I've been up for 33 hours.
THANK YOU COCA-COLA! Caffeine is TEH sex. hahha.
Damn, I'm so gonna age faster. -.-Labels: Re-discovering Myself
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"Lunfy", haha. I'm 19 this year. I like loud people, sports, gym, dancing, singing, the beach, whatever that makes me feel alive. Well, I guess I'll look like any other guy out on the street if you see me. Just like how everyone looks like. But if you do take the time and trouble to know the people you deemed "similar" and "insignificant", the world wouldn't look so big anymore. I like being nice to people, people whom I've never known, seen or spoken to before. Pretty much random acts of kindness, not caring to whom, what, when or where. But too bad, almost no one in this country doesn't really know how to react to kindness. Either they'll act as if nothing happened or stare at you like some freak. I always believed that a single smile can change someone's life totally. I'm a heavy chain smoker, but I did manage to cut down alot this year. I appreciate a wide range of music. I hate the fact that some people label themselves with genres and be so narrow-minded about music. I believe no one can find true love, because it finds you. Till then, please be patient. Don't go starting off meaningless relationships or relationships you know that won't last. I hate the fact that out in the streets, people are collecting cans for a living while our ministers dance around and earn millions each year. Politics around the world are getting more and more ridiculous each day. To me, there seems to be no such thing as democracy anymore, but downright capitalism everywhere. I support movements for human rights and against animal abuse. Even though our freedom and rights have been taken away by ridiculous laws, I believe we can still make a difference one day. Once I told my friends I'd stay here and fight for what I believe in till I made a difference rather than migrate with them to somewhere else, and I got made fun of. It's okay I guess, because some people don't really understand. I have a bad habit of observing people, their actions, reactions, and attitude. But oh well, at least that makes me get along with almost everyone I meet in my life. I just pity people with social defects.
So that's all for now. Maybe I'll add more stuff soon and maybe some pictures. See ya.
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