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Sunday, August 26, 2007, 5:40 PM
It's been awhile since I took 307 around Choa Chu Kang. A LONG while. And boy, quite alot of stuff has changed. Choa Chu Kang MRT is now full of shops and shiet, CCKCC undergoing some renovation, the dumb shopping centre/residence they're building is quite tall now. Went to polyclinic in the morning to get MC for work, had diarrhoea and food poisoning. Was sick the whole week. It's kinda ok if I'm sick, but one thing I hate is at the point where I'm damn sick and all, and I have to tell my mom, she won't believe me. She always think I'm lazy when I tell her I'm sick. That, or she blames my eating and sleeping habits ALL THE TIME, which is damn stupid. Is it just so hard to accept the fact that I'M SICK BECAUSE I GOT SICK, and not blame it on other things. PLEASE. Ooh! Project Portfolio. I'm gonna be all over Singapore, taking nice pictures for my portfolio and camping at school from dawn till dusk sketching structures and stuffs. After exams that is. Ok, random pictures time. 
A boat made from crabclaws LOL.
A common sight in the library during project week.
And isn't this damn nice? Only going at $45.
My mom made it, a watch made with Swarvorski Pearls.
Limited Edition :D
I think it's damn unique.
Saturday, August 25, 2007, 7:33 PM
Is it just me? Or am I getting happier and carefree day by day, while my friends emo more often? Those "sit-down-and-think-while-observing-much-of-the-surrounding" syndromes have appeard almost in everyone that I've known well enough.
I don't know. Just a feeling.
Well, whatever everyone's going through, it's just temporary lah. I have that syndrome everyday, and it gets really depressing and mind-killing at times. But it's the way I see the world that prevents me from getting depression or dwelling too much on such thoughts.
Yeah, I know, all the "been there done that" thing.
I should be in Psychology or something. Seriously.
Nah. LOL. It sounds fun, but I'd lose interest sooner or later.
What I've known about the mind and human emotions/instincts is enough.
Or else, I might be the one ending up with depression.
Labels: Re-discovering Myself
Thursday, August 23, 2007, 7:02 PM
Im freaking confused now.
WILL DESIGN SCHOOL HAVE AN OCTOBER INTAKE OR NOT!?
Amos says no.
Ronald says Moses says there is. And he's 100% sure there is.
whatever it is.
PLEASE I DONT WANT TO SPEND ANOTHER TERM IN I.T.
Although I.T. has been my whole life and all, and I probably can troubleshoot quite well.
BUT YEAH, I HATE IT, SICK OF IT, AND ITS STRESSFUL.
Yeah, I know, I've been quite a prodigy in computers ever since 5/6 years old when I learned how to use the computer through MS DOS, during times when computers had GUI, or in layman's terms, the interface. And how I picked up HTML in primary school after tampering around with blogskins and source codes, and started designing my own blogskins. Yeah, that's all fun, but I don't want to do all those stuff as a JOB or something to do during the rest of my life.
I'm just in it for the games and expanding ma knowledge of IT yo. Programming's all fancy and interesting and all, but it just ain't my passion. It's like, when you do something, you get that "EGH" feeling in your heart, saying like "WOAH, IM DOING WHAT I LIKE. I LOVE MY LIFE".
It was during secondry school when I picked up photography, that I suddenly had this "EGH" feeling. AND IT FEELS DAMN GOOOOOD to have uber nice pictures. (But too bad, my com crashed, all the pictures are gone. ftw) Art was damn fun in secondry school days, too bad my school didn't have Art Streams. ):
What I can tell is that where my passion really lies is in the Arts. I never really had an ambition since young. And I wondered what would I be when I grow up. Of course, there's always the "LIVE YOUR LIFE IN ARMY" plan, but it's kinda lame. I.T. proffesional? YAWN.
But one day, I thought, what if I can just do anything I want. Even if there is no income, that's where my passion lies, and that's all enough. I want to live my life doing something I love. Not to make money. Not because I'm forced. Not to shine. But just because I like it. And I've thought hard. I guess what I want to do is get better at is mainly photography and painting.
Which reminds me, I did have an ambition. It was during Sec3 when I realized, I wanted to be a photojournalist, travel around the world taking pictures. And when I grow old, spend my days painting. Then I would share my photos and paintings with my grandchildren.
Awwww. Good ending. HAHAHAHA. wow, its all so planned out. I hope it goes that way then.
Ok. Time to play something. I'm getting bored.
GOOSMORNING EVERYONE! :D
Wednesday, August 08, 2007, 10:31 AM
WAAARRRRGHHHH.
WEEE WEEE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Go away emo posts! Luffy wants to smile :D
:D
:D
:D
:D
:D
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Now playing: Muse - Time is Running Out
via FoxyTunes
Monday, August 06, 2007, 8:03 PM
Sometimes, I just think I dream too much. Too much of a life that I'm too damn used to. I'm really fickle-minded. I guess I inherited that from an old friend, haha.
Usually, during those hour-long mrt or bus rides alone, other than listening to the radio, all I can do is think about my whole life. It's good I guess, to think once in a while, but not EVERY SINGLE DAY. Life will be full of insecurities and disappointments if you did that. I know, I've tried.
Every single day, I would think about something. Could've started from anything that pops up in my head. Like whether I can really get into Design School next sem, or should I just go get a motorcycle license next year even though my mom disapproves of it. Or stuff like when should I start looking for a girlfriend(hah), should I get Oakley sunglasses, blablabla. But it always ends the same every single time I start thinking. It always ends at the point where I realized, as if I could understand everyone in the world, and life itself, unaffected by feelings or biased thinking.
Once again, I ask myself. How long should I hide in this shell? As long as everyone's happy?
I just really wonder sometimes, about the few people who know who I really am, and the rest who laughs at that orange-haired kid, the rest who I love entertaining. Hah.
Hmph.
Sometimes, all I want is just for everyone to recognise my good intentions.
And not have that twisted notion like "oh, he's just like any other guy. insensitive, muscle-brain, oogle's at girls all day, watches soccer and dont really care the shit about the whole universe".
p.s. I've been up for 33 hours.
THANK YOU COCA-COLA! Caffeine is TEH sex. hahha.
Damn, I'm so gonna age faster. -.-Labels: Re-discovering Myself
Wednesday, August 01, 2007, 12:28 AM
I'm sick of it. I don't get why you have to do that all the time. Simply pushing everything else away when you've found something new.
I'm not gonna tail you around anymore, thinking that my presence can at least cheer you up when you're down. Because you have enough people to keep you happy, and you forget about the rest.
But sometimes, you just don't realize how damn lucky you are.
But after thinking more about it, I really feel it's a waste of time dwelling on such matters. Unlike you, I have a greater perspective and understanding of the world. Because things that've happened are simply read chapters in a book. No use re-reading them if you know what happens next.
I'll move on.
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Sunday, August 26, 2007, 5:40 PM
It's been awhile since I took 307 around Choa Chu Kang. A LONG while. And boy, quite alot of stuff has changed. Choa Chu Kang MRT is now full of shops and shiet, CCKCC undergoing some renovation, the dumb shopping centre/residence they're building is quite tall now. Went to polyclinic in the morning to get MC for work, had diarrhoea and food poisoning. Was sick the whole week. It's kinda ok if I'm sick, but one thing I hate is at the point where I'm damn sick and all, and I have to tell my mom, she won't believe me. She always think I'm lazy when I tell her I'm sick. That, or she blames my eating and sleeping habits ALL THE TIME, which is damn stupid. Is it just so hard to accept the fact that I'M SICK BECAUSE I GOT SICK, and not blame it on other things. PLEASE. Ooh! Project Portfolio. I'm gonna be all over Singapore, taking nice pictures for my portfolio and camping at school from dawn till dusk sketching structures and stuffs. After exams that is. Ok, random pictures time.
A boat made from crabclaws LOL.
A common sight in the library during project week.
And isn't this damn nice? Only going at $45.
My mom made it, a watch made with Swarvorski Pearls.
Limited Edition :D
I think it's damn unique.
Saturday, August 25, 2007, 7:33 PM
Is it just me? Or am I getting happier and carefree day by day, while my friends emo more often? Those "sit-down-and-think-while-observing-much-of-the-surrounding" syndromes have appeard almost in everyone that I've known well enough.
I don't know. Just a feeling.
Well, whatever everyone's going through, it's just temporary lah. I have that syndrome everyday, and it gets really depressing and mind-killing at times. But it's the way I see the world that prevents me from getting depression or dwelling too much on such thoughts.
Yeah, I know, all the "been there done that" thing.
I should be in Psychology or something. Seriously.
Nah. LOL. It sounds fun, but I'd lose interest sooner or later.
What I've known about the mind and human emotions/instincts is enough.
Or else, I might be the one ending up with depression.
Labels: Re-discovering Myself
Thursday, August 23, 2007, 7:02 PM
Im freaking confused now.
WILL DESIGN SCHOOL HAVE AN OCTOBER INTAKE OR NOT!?
Amos says no.
Ronald says Moses says there is. And he's 100% sure there is.
whatever it is.
PLEASE I DONT WANT TO SPEND ANOTHER TERM IN I.T.
Although I.T. has been my whole life and all, and I probably can troubleshoot quite well.
BUT YEAH, I HATE IT, SICK OF IT, AND ITS STRESSFUL.
Yeah, I know, I've been quite a prodigy in computers ever since 5/6 years old when I learned how to use the computer through MS DOS, during times when computers had GUI, or in layman's terms, the interface. And how I picked up HTML in primary school after tampering around with blogskins and source codes, and started designing my own blogskins. Yeah, that's all fun, but I don't want to do all those stuff as a JOB or something to do during the rest of my life.
I'm just in it for the games and expanding ma knowledge of IT yo. Programming's all fancy and interesting and all, but it just ain't my passion. It's like, when you do something, you get that "EGH" feeling in your heart, saying like "WOAH, IM DOING WHAT I LIKE. I LOVE MY LIFE".
It was during secondry school when I picked up photography, that I suddenly had this "EGH" feeling. AND IT FEELS DAMN GOOOOOD to have uber nice pictures. (But too bad, my com crashed, all the pictures are gone. ftw) Art was damn fun in secondry school days, too bad my school didn't have Art Streams. ):
What I can tell is that where my passion really lies is in the Arts. I never really had an ambition since young. And I wondered what would I be when I grow up. Of course, there's always the "LIVE YOUR LIFE IN ARMY" plan, but it's kinda lame. I.T. proffesional? YAWN.
But one day, I thought, what if I can just do anything I want. Even if there is no income, that's where my passion lies, and that's all enough. I want to live my life doing something I love. Not to make money. Not because I'm forced. Not to shine. But just because I like it. And I've thought hard. I guess what I want to do is get better at is mainly photography and painting.
Which reminds me, I did have an ambition. It was during Sec3 when I realized, I wanted to be a photojournalist, travel around the world taking pictures. And when I grow old, spend my days painting. Then I would share my photos and paintings with my grandchildren.
Awwww. Good ending. HAHAHAHA. wow, its all so planned out. I hope it goes that way then.
Ok. Time to play something. I'm getting bored.
GOOSMORNING EVERYONE! :D
Wednesday, August 08, 2007, 10:31 AM
WAAARRRRGHHHH.
WEEE WEEE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Go away emo posts! Luffy wants to smile :D
:D
:D
:D
:D
:D
:D
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Now playing: Muse - Time is Running Out
via FoxyTunes
Monday, August 06, 2007, 8:03 PM
Sometimes, I just think I dream too much. Too much of a life that I'm too damn used to. I'm really fickle-minded. I guess I inherited that from an old friend, haha.
Usually, during those hour-long mrt or bus rides alone, other than listening to the radio, all I can do is think about my whole life. It's good I guess, to think once in a while, but not EVERY SINGLE DAY. Life will be full of insecurities and disappointments if you did that. I know, I've tried.
Every single day, I would think about something. Could've started from anything that pops up in my head. Like whether I can really get into Design School next sem, or should I just go get a motorcycle license next year even though my mom disapproves of it. Or stuff like when should I start looking for a girlfriend(hah), should I get Oakley sunglasses, blablabla. But it always ends the same every single time I start thinking. It always ends at the point where I realized, as if I could understand everyone in the world, and life itself, unaffected by feelings or biased thinking.
Once again, I ask myself. How long should I hide in this shell? As long as everyone's happy?
I just really wonder sometimes, about the few people who know who I really am, and the rest who laughs at that orange-haired kid, the rest who I love entertaining. Hah.
Hmph.
Sometimes, all I want is just for everyone to recognise my good intentions.
And not have that twisted notion like "oh, he's just like any other guy. insensitive, muscle-brain, oogle's at girls all day, watches soccer and dont really care the shit about the whole universe".
p.s. I've been up for 33 hours.
THANK YOU COCA-COLA! Caffeine is TEH sex. hahha.
Damn, I'm so gonna age faster. -.-Labels: Re-discovering Myself
Wednesday, August 01, 2007, 12:28 AM
I'm sick of it. I don't get why you have to do that all the time. Simply pushing everything else away when you've found something new.
I'm not gonna tail you around anymore, thinking that my presence can at least cheer you up when you're down. Because you have enough people to keep you happy, and you forget about the rest.
But sometimes, you just don't realize how damn lucky you are.
But after thinking more about it, I really feel it's a waste of time dwelling on such matters. Unlike you, I have a greater perspective and understanding of the world. Because things that've happened are simply read chapters in a book. No use re-reading them if you know what happens next.
I'll move on.
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"Lunfy", haha. I'm 19 this year. I like loud people, sports, gym, dancing, singing, the beach, whatever that makes me feel alive. Well, I guess I'll look like any other guy out on the street if you see me. Just like how everyone looks like. But if you do take the time and trouble to know the people you deemed "similar" and "insignificant", the world wouldn't look so big anymore. I like being nice to people, people whom I've never known, seen or spoken to before. Pretty much random acts of kindness, not caring to whom, what, when or where. But too bad, almost no one in this country doesn't really know how to react to kindness. Either they'll act as if nothing happened or stare at you like some freak. I always believed that a single smile can change someone's life totally. I'm a heavy chain smoker, but I did manage to cut down alot this year. I appreciate a wide range of music. I hate the fact that some people label themselves with genres and be so narrow-minded about music. I believe no one can find true love, because it finds you. Till then, please be patient. Don't go starting off meaningless relationships or relationships you know that won't last. I hate the fact that out in the streets, people are collecting cans for a living while our ministers dance around and earn millions each year. Politics around the world are getting more and more ridiculous each day. To me, there seems to be no such thing as democracy anymore, but downright capitalism everywhere. I support movements for human rights and against animal abuse. Even though our freedom and rights have been taken away by ridiculous laws, I believe we can still make a difference one day. Once I told my friends I'd stay here and fight for what I believe in till I made a difference rather than migrate with them to somewhere else, and I got made fun of. It's okay I guess, because some people don't really understand. I have a bad habit of observing people, their actions, reactions, and attitude. But oh well, at least that makes me get along with almost everyone I meet in my life. I just pity people with social defects.
So that's all for now. Maybe I'll add more stuff soon and maybe some pictures. See ya.
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