Neon blue.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008, 11:03 PM

I never asked for these thoughts.
I never wanted such complexity.
But it's too late.
My life is forever cursed with such control of my thoughts.
To the point of no control at all.
How disappointed I am for it all to be this way.
Where everything I hoped for my heart is nothing but a silhouette, far far away.
Because it all seems worthless by the mind.

I want normal back.

11:03 PM

Why?
Because I'm afraid.
Afraid of it all.
Afraid to the point where I hate it.
Hate it to the core.
And seek for something perfect.
I'm not ignorant.
I do not ignore because I couldn't care less.
I ignore because of fear.

I am afraid.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008, 12:51 AM

I have a dream.
Well, I have many dreams.
Let me share some of them with you.

I want to travel the world and capture amazing moments I only see on televisions or magazines. I want to help poor people around the world. I wanna make everyone feel happy and loved. Make people feel that they're not followers/zombies/slaves of a system cycle. Not continuing with a flow that's unconsciously against their will. I want to make people feel empowered. To feel that every single one of them is able to shape the world. To make the world realize that they should never ever do anything that will have negative effects to any party. To make use of advantage, but never mix it with desire. To be happy with what they already have, rather than to what they will have in the future. No corruption. No exploitation. No capitalism. No conflicts.

Wouldn't it be nice to live in such a world?
I guess such a world is impossible to shape from the current one.
But it never hurts to try our best.
What do we have to lose?

Profile

"Lunfy", haha. I'm 19 this year. I like loud people, sports, gym, dancing, singing, the beach, whatever that makes me feel alive. Well, I guess I'll look like any other guy out on the street if you see me. Just like how everyone looks like. But if you do take the time and trouble to know the people you deemed "similar" and "insignificant", the world wouldn't look so big anymore. I like being nice to people, people whom I've never known, seen or spoken to before. Pretty much random acts of kindness, not caring to whom, what, when or where. But too bad, almost no one in this country doesn't really know how to react to kindness. Either they'll act as if nothing happened or stare at you like some freak. I always believed that a single smile can change someone's life totally. I'm a heavy chain smoker, but I did manage to cut down alot this year. I appreciate a wide range of music. I hate the fact that some people label themselves with genres and be so narrow-minded about music. I believe no one can find true love, because it finds you. Till then, please be patient. Don't go starting off meaningless relationships or relationships you know that won't last. I hate the fact that out in the streets, people are collecting cans for a living while our ministers dance around and earn millions each year. Politics around the world are getting more and more ridiculous each day. To me, there seems to be no such thing as democracy anymore, but downright capitalism everywhere. I support movements for human rights and against animal abuse. Even though our freedom and rights have been taken away by ridiculous laws, I believe we can still make a difference one day. Once I told my friends I'd stay here and fight for what I believe in till I made a difference rather than migrate with them to somewhere else, and I got made fun of. It's okay I guess, because some people don't really understand. I have a bad habit of observing people, their actions, reactions, and attitude. But oh well, at least that makes me get along with almost everyone I meet in my life. I just pity people with social defects.

So that's all for now. Maybe I'll add more stuff soon and maybe some pictures. See ya.