Sunday, October 29, 2006, 9:52 PM
I was tidying up my folders just now..and guess what I found?! My old love poems which I wrote myself when I was in "love" last time.
Uh, "love". How cheesy.(And I don't mean Cheewai by that)
I guess some of you have seen it before. Oh well. No harm in embarrassing myself once again. Ok, enjoy people. And believe it. I wrote them.
.01.
The last time I saw u
It was sad
I wanted to see u again so bad
Now my heart is torn n flat
Like a knife cutting through cloth and thread
Like sealing someone from the reality
Missing you is like losing gravity
Nothing makes me feel fine
Except seeing you happy all the time
But the fear is still there
Happy and sad, it feels unfair
Swirled together, it creates the fear
Fear of losing you, my dear
Losing you will cause devastation
To my heart, that'll be the reaction
After we met, you changed my life
Like through the air an invisible guide
Of the shadows and eclipses of my dreams
Thats where I found you, the outer rims
Nothing else seems to matter now
Except you, the sun that I allow
To dominate my mind of what I'm thinking
Every second that I keep linking
To you, as if you were the timeI never experienced this kind
Of feeling before in my life
I felt as if I had dived
Into the pool of your heart
Drowning me every second, it is hard
To confess to you how I feel
Thinking about you, how I need your heal
Even though im trapped in this cave
There is a power that continues to wave
The starvation, I feel not
I would fall for you and cut the cord
For I will do anything for your love
Remember you I will..forever..and ever..
Someone like you comes once in forever..
Head over heels..
.02.
As I sat alone in this chair
Engulfed by darkness, death and despair
A trickle of hope flows down my cheeks
Thinking of you, my heart slowly bleeds
For your presence, you give me the warmth of the sun
Yet, there is still sadness that takes the shape of a gun
For only your last few words will determine
The fate of my life, joy or sorrow will intervene
Your words..the shape of a weapon
Whether it will save me, or hunt
The happy or sad memories throughout my life
Or the fun or torture of my soul that dives
Into the reality, oh how I suffer
If I could, I would have bartered
Anything in return for your love
Seeing your picture, a beautiful white dove
You are everything to me
And your words of choice will free or contain me
But now, I am still hanging on this fence
To cross over or remain in trance
Towards your hypnotic beauty and kindred soul
And get nowhere, till my blood flows
Till it empties, I shall regret
Of not telling you the truth, the chance I had
If we were meant to be
Then my dreams, they have lead me
To you, my sweet angel
Calming my rage, dissolving my troubles..
For you, the amount of my words cannot express
The love I feel, the pain I endure
It will all soon end in time
An ending..to be sad, or just fine..
Engulfed by darkness, death and despair
A trickle of hope flows down my cheeks
Thinking of you, my heart slowly bleeds
For your presence, you give me the warmth of the sun
Yet, there is still sadness that takes the shape of a gun
For only your last few words will determine
The fate of my life, joy or sorrow will intervene
Your words..the shape of a weapon
Whether it will save me, or hunt
The happy or sad memories throughout my life
Or the fun or torture of my soul that dives
Into the reality, oh how I suffer
If I could, I would have bartered
Anything in return for your love
Seeing your picture, a beautiful white dove
You are everything to me
And your words of choice will free or contain me
But now, I am still hanging on this fence
To cross over or remain in trance
Towards your hypnotic beauty and kindred soul
And get nowhere, till my blood flows
Till it empties, I shall regret
Of not telling you the truth, the chance I had
If we were meant to be
Then my dreams, they have lead me
To you, my sweet angel
Calming my rage, dissolving my troubles..
For you, the amount of my words cannot express
The love I feel, the pain I endure
It will all soon end in time
An ending..to be sad, or just fine..
.03.
The feeling I had for you, it was special
It is something that I have never handled
It haunts me, day and night
There is nowhere that I can hide
To forget you, it feels like suicide
To lose you, I might as well have died
Ending this pain, seems like impossible
For your fortress in my heart is impregnable
Every night, I toss and turn
Thinking of you as the candle brim burns
Seeing you happy, is all I need
But not enough to be freed
Freed, from my everlasting torture
Too much, that I have suffered
This pain, it is devastating
Replaced with eternal love, instead of feelings
Into my heart, this pain has entered
Leaving my heart, dead and tattered
At times, it gets so sad
Draw my tears with love I had
To ease the pain, that's what I'll do
To help me break this brick wall through
That seems to cut me off from you
And confess to you about the truth
The truth, which must be told
Before my heart bleeds out and turns cold
I need you to be with me
I need you to be free..
Free me..
With your love..
Its getting too long..
Its getting to tough..
I am losing my grip..
Preparing to fall..
Into the valley of the dark..
Kill my memories..or save me with your love..
It is something that I have never handled
It haunts me, day and night
There is nowhere that I can hide
To forget you, it feels like suicide
To lose you, I might as well have died
Ending this pain, seems like impossible
For your fortress in my heart is impregnable
Every night, I toss and turn
Thinking of you as the candle brim burns
Seeing you happy, is all I need
But not enough to be freed
Freed, from my everlasting torture
Too much, that I have suffered
This pain, it is devastating
Replaced with eternal love, instead of feelings
Into my heart, this pain has entered
Leaving my heart, dead and tattered
At times, it gets so sad
Draw my tears with love I had
To ease the pain, that's what I'll do
To help me break this brick wall through
That seems to cut me off from you
And confess to you about the truth
The truth, which must be told
Before my heart bleeds out and turns cold
I need you to be with me
I need you to be free..
Free me..
With your love..
Its getting too long..
Its getting to tough..
I am losing my grip..
Preparing to fall..
Into the valley of the dark..
Kill my memories..or save me with your love..
.04.
The path is uncertain,
Shadowed by doubt,
The soul, outshined,
By lingering thoughts,
Caught in the net of reality,
Lost all sense of negativity,
Happy, yet dead inside,
Fantasies and dreams decayed in time,
Joy, Sorrow, partners in crime,
Awaiting tomorrow, all the time,
Happy waves and sweet hellos,
Empty craves and flirty throws,
Neglecting love, to suffer, to cry,
Gaining focus, to study, to try,
But the soul screams louder,
The tears won't deny,
Wrecked life, too bad,
No sub, no revive,
Nothing seems to be right now,
Friendships, studies, meanings unfound,
Wasted weekdays, shopping highs,
Mindless droning, brain cells and hives,
New gear, sharp turns, happy first tries,
Sushi, burgers, pineapple pies,
Those were the times, still embossed in memory,
Joyful glee, to cherish for eternity,
Hanging on to them, just to stay happy,
To remember, to laugh, an act of purgatory.
Well, this is my life,
It isn't perfect,
Just live it,
Just love it,
Just strive on ahead..
Shadowed by doubt,
The soul, outshined,
By lingering thoughts,
Caught in the net of reality,
Lost all sense of negativity,
Happy, yet dead inside,
Fantasies and dreams decayed in time,
Joy, Sorrow, partners in crime,
Awaiting tomorrow, all the time,
Happy waves and sweet hellos,
Empty craves and flirty throws,
Neglecting love, to suffer, to cry,
Gaining focus, to study, to try,
But the soul screams louder,
The tears won't deny,
Wrecked life, too bad,
No sub, no revive,
Nothing seems to be right now,
Friendships, studies, meanings unfound,
Wasted weekdays, shopping highs,
Mindless droning, brain cells and hives,
New gear, sharp turns, happy first tries,
Sushi, burgers, pineapple pies,
Those were the times, still embossed in memory,
Joyful glee, to cherish for eternity,
Hanging on to them, just to stay happy,
To remember, to laugh, an act of purgatory.
Well, this is my life,
It isn't perfect,
Just live it,
Just love it,
Just strive on ahead..
OMG SO CHEESY CAN?
Uhh.. I want to...VOMIT. EWW EWW EWW.
"LOVE" wtf?!
Whatever,whatever. Just remember this sentence.
And you'll live happily ever after.
.!!!.
Do not believe in LOVE
LOVE will destroy your dreams
And suffocate your capabilities
Stand alone & live life without regrets
SMILE
LOVE will destroy your dreams
And suffocate your capabilities
Stand alone & live life without regrets
SMILE
And with that,
Goodnight people. =)
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