Neon blue.

Sunday, April 29, 2007, 5:24 PM

It is shocking to discover that fact about myself.
Well, not quite. Maybe it's because I don't even have the desire. But it really reminds me of a conversation I once had over a phone with a certain friend. I could hear how hard he was holding his tears back as he poured everything out, and all I could do is listen. I can't share his pain, I can't do anything more. But now, I do know how he feels, and how it feels like. I don't know wtfbbq happened. Since graduation, wait, no, since Samantha. Or was also because of that incident a few months ago? I don't really know, but I guess what happened a few months ago made things worse. It's torture. And the insecurity is killing me. I've understood. It's not the desire. It's the need.

I don't care.
I just need you to be by my side.
A pal, a close friend, whatever.
I need you.

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"Lunfy", haha. I'm 19 this year. I like loud people, sports, gym, dancing, singing, the beach, whatever that makes me feel alive. Well, I guess I'll look like any other guy out on the street if you see me. Just like how everyone looks like. But if you do take the time and trouble to know the people you deemed "similar" and "insignificant", the world wouldn't look so big anymore. I like being nice to people, people whom I've never known, seen or spoken to before. Pretty much random acts of kindness, not caring to whom, what, when or where. But too bad, almost no one in this country doesn't really know how to react to kindness. Either they'll act as if nothing happened or stare at you like some freak. I always believed that a single smile can change someone's life totally. I'm a heavy chain smoker, but I did manage to cut down alot this year. I appreciate a wide range of music. I hate the fact that some people label themselves with genres and be so narrow-minded about music. I believe no one can find true love, because it finds you. Till then, please be patient. Don't go starting off meaningless relationships or relationships you know that won't last. I hate the fact that out in the streets, people are collecting cans for a living while our ministers dance around and earn millions each year. Politics around the world are getting more and more ridiculous each day. To me, there seems to be no such thing as democracy anymore, but downright capitalism everywhere. I support movements for human rights and against animal abuse. Even though our freedom and rights have been taken away by ridiculous laws, I believe we can still make a difference one day. Once I told my friends I'd stay here and fight for what I believe in till I made a difference rather than migrate with them to somewhere else, and I got made fun of. It's okay I guess, because some people don't really understand. I have a bad habit of observing people, their actions, reactions, and attitude. But oh well, at least that makes me get along with almost everyone I meet in my life. I just pity people with social defects.

So that's all for now. Maybe I'll add more stuff soon and maybe some pictures. See ya.