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Tuesday, December 05, 2006, 9:25 PM
Its Monday. Well, it WAS Monday a few hours ago.
Its Monday Blues for me I guess.
What now then? Tuesday Daze?
I'm just not in the mood to talk to people right now.
Just got a job at Fish&Co at IMM. But who cares.
I think I should stop blogging about my personal life.
Who would want to read about it anyway?
What? Do you really want to know whether I bought those furry shoes or those leather gloves instead? Or "WOW I DYED MY HAIR TODAY" and "WOW TODAY WAS FUN" posts. Lets just leave personal posts to events like PROM or Grand Functions. I no longer wish to waste time blogging nitty gritty details about my uninteresting boring lifeless LIFE.
Some idiot's words kept ringing in my mind today.
"Eh, O levels finish, time to get a girlfriend!!"
Or did I say that? Nah. Couldn't be. I wouldn't be caught dead saying crap like this.
I'm starting to suspect I'm a philophobic. Maybe its because I avoid "love" too much. I have shunned every thought of "love" since the start of the year and vowed never to be caught dead in the middle of some week-old-relationships, but it keeps creeping back. Well, for those who knew about "the thing" that happened to me this year regarding this topic, let me tell you that everything was fake. It wasn't love. It was some childish attraction that I put an end to once I realized how meaningless it was.
When you spent TOO MUCH time with someone of the opposite sex, a stupid thing called INFATUATION sets in. And these are the moments that I really hate. Sometimes, you can't get some people out of your mind. It feels like love. But it isn't. INFATUATION is like poison. Once you get it, it slowly liquifieds your insides and make you soft and vulnerable to what I find, "stupid" thoughts and musings. You start to think of that person so much till you feel like puking blood. More worse if you don't get to see her face or hear her voice. All you have are pictures, and thats all. Every glance at them feels like a dagger into your heart.
You want her badly. But you can't.
Because you know that you'll ruin something that's even precious. Friendship.
Lets just say that you got rejected and you failed.
Well, LOVE being introduced into FRIENDSHIP is like a flamethrower being introduced to clothes. The clothes get burnt off and just leaves FRIENDSHIP's naked body. And at this point, FRIENDSHIP will really feel awkward. Thus, it runs away. When will friendship wear new clothes? Who knows. Maybe it never did own a closet, so its running around naked, away from the flamer.
Okay. That was crap. But if there are intelligent people out there, they'll know what I'm trying to say.
I'm chewing on these cashew nuts, dried cuttlefish and drinking a carton of milk. Bad combination, from what I learnt yesterday. Well, who cares. I don't really care much about my diet. And thats when I realized something. I've been shunning people away today, sometimes even refusing to lift a finger to type a "YES" or "NO" to answer their questions. Like I said. I don't feel like talking to people today.
Well, lets move on.
Ah, yes "LOVE". How long have I been going on and on and on about this topic. Too much I think. I should stop.
But you see. I can't really stop. "A very stupid topic" I say every now and then. Yet, very enticing.
Maybe Tuesday would be a better day for me. Maybe not. Maybe all I need is just to kill the feeling off. Or should I satisfy it? =.= I doubt the latter will work.
I can already hear the birds chirping outside.
Or "Sqwaking" as how it sounds like.
Its getting early. I should grab some sleep soon.
Good Morning. =)
P.S.
Thanks Mark for accompanying me almost every night on msn. I don't know what I would probably do without you. And there seems to be a problem with song transfers between our coms. I'll make it up to you another time.
Ok I'm starting to have blurry double vision.
Bye.
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006, 9:25 PM
Its Monday. Well, it WAS Monday a few hours ago.
Its Monday Blues for me I guess.
What now then? Tuesday Daze?
I'm just not in the mood to talk to people right now.
Just got a job at Fish&Co at IMM. But who cares.
I think I should stop blogging about my personal life.
Who would want to read about it anyway?
What? Do you really want to know whether I bought those furry shoes or those leather gloves instead? Or "WOW I DYED MY HAIR TODAY" and "WOW TODAY WAS FUN" posts. Lets just leave personal posts to events like PROM or Grand Functions. I no longer wish to waste time blogging nitty gritty details about my uninteresting boring lifeless LIFE.
Some idiot's words kept ringing in my mind today.
"Eh, O levels finish, time to get a girlfriend!!"
Or did I say that? Nah. Couldn't be. I wouldn't be caught dead saying crap like this.
I'm starting to suspect I'm a philophobic. Maybe its because I avoid "love" too much. I have shunned every thought of "love" since the start of the year and vowed never to be caught dead in the middle of some week-old-relationships, but it keeps creeping back. Well, for those who knew about "the thing" that happened to me this year regarding this topic, let me tell you that everything was fake. It wasn't love. It was some childish attraction that I put an end to once I realized how meaningless it was.
When you spent TOO MUCH time with someone of the opposite sex, a stupid thing called INFATUATION sets in. And these are the moments that I really hate. Sometimes, you can't get some people out of your mind. It feels like love. But it isn't. INFATUATION is like poison. Once you get it, it slowly liquifieds your insides and make you soft and vulnerable to what I find, "stupid" thoughts and musings. You start to think of that person so much till you feel like puking blood. More worse if you don't get to see her face or hear her voice. All you have are pictures, and thats all. Every glance at them feels like a dagger into your heart.
You want her badly. But you can't.
Because you know that you'll ruin something that's even precious. Friendship.
Lets just say that you got rejected and you failed.
Well, LOVE being introduced into FRIENDSHIP is like a flamethrower being introduced to clothes. The clothes get burnt off and just leaves FRIENDSHIP's naked body. And at this point, FRIENDSHIP will really feel awkward. Thus, it runs away. When will friendship wear new clothes? Who knows. Maybe it never did own a closet, so its running around naked, away from the flamer.
Okay. That was crap. But if there are intelligent people out there, they'll know what I'm trying to say.
I'm chewing on these cashew nuts, dried cuttlefish and drinking a carton of milk. Bad combination, from what I learnt yesterday. Well, who cares. I don't really care much about my diet. And thats when I realized something. I've been shunning people away today, sometimes even refusing to lift a finger to type a "YES" or "NO" to answer their questions. Like I said. I don't feel like talking to people today.
Well, lets move on.
Ah, yes "LOVE". How long have I been going on and on and on about this topic. Too much I think. I should stop.
But you see. I can't really stop. "A very stupid topic" I say every now and then. Yet, very enticing.
Maybe Tuesday would be a better day for me. Maybe not. Maybe all I need is just to kill the feeling off. Or should I satisfy it? =.= I doubt the latter will work.
I can already hear the birds chirping outside.
Or "Sqwaking" as how it sounds like.
Its getting early. I should grab some sleep soon.
Good Morning. =)
P.S.
Thanks Mark for accompanying me almost every night on msn. I don't know what I would probably do without you. And there seems to be a problem with song transfers between our coms. I'll make it up to you another time.
Ok I'm starting to have blurry double vision.
Bye.
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"Lunfy", haha. I'm 19 this year. I like loud people, sports, gym, dancing, singing, the beach, whatever that makes me feel alive. Well, I guess I'll look like any other guy out on the street if you see me. Just like how everyone looks like. But if you do take the time and trouble to know the people you deemed "similar" and "insignificant", the world wouldn't look so big anymore. I like being nice to people, people whom I've never known, seen or spoken to before. Pretty much random acts of kindness, not caring to whom, what, when or where. But too bad, almost no one in this country doesn't really know how to react to kindness. Either they'll act as if nothing happened or stare at you like some freak. I always believed that a single smile can change someone's life totally. I'm a heavy chain smoker, but I did manage to cut down alot this year. I appreciate a wide range of music. I hate the fact that some people label themselves with genres and be so narrow-minded about music. I believe no one can find true love, because it finds you. Till then, please be patient. Don't go starting off meaningless relationships or relationships you know that won't last. I hate the fact that out in the streets, people are collecting cans for a living while our ministers dance around and earn millions each year. Politics around the world are getting more and more ridiculous each day. To me, there seems to be no such thing as democracy anymore, but downright capitalism everywhere. I support movements for human rights and against animal abuse. Even though our freedom and rights have been taken away by ridiculous laws, I believe we can still make a difference one day. Once I told my friends I'd stay here and fight for what I believe in till I made a difference rather than migrate with them to somewhere else, and I got made fun of. It's okay I guess, because some people don't really understand. I have a bad habit of observing people, their actions, reactions, and attitude. But oh well, at least that makes me get along with almost everyone I meet in my life. I just pity people with social defects.
So that's all for now. Maybe I'll add more stuff soon and maybe some pictures. See ya.
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