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Saturday, November 18, 2006, 10:48 PM
Sometimes. I get so exhausted. I feel so depressed, so tired of everything. I want to throw everything away. I want to be something NEW. I want to stop tolerating, refresh my list of friends and stop trying to make others happy at the expense of my own happiness.
BUT.
Everytime I want to, something stops me.
When I really think about it, I just feel like crying(can't cry though, must act macho)
About how lucky I am.
Even though sometimes, people really wear me out. But there are still some who won't fail to put a smile on my face. Usually when I'm down, I don't talk about it. You might be able to see it through my facial expression, even though I claim I'm OK. But in actual fact. I'm not. I slug around, totally depressed and moody. The only time when I talk about my problems with someone else is when I really don't know what to do.
I dedicate this post to none other than my friends and family. You guys can't imagine how special and lucky I feel right now.
Thank You.
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Saturday, November 18, 2006, 10:48 PM
Sometimes. I get so exhausted. I feel so depressed, so tired of everything. I want to throw everything away. I want to be something NEW. I want to stop tolerating, refresh my list of friends and stop trying to make others happy at the expense of my own happiness.
BUT.
Everytime I want to, something stops me.
When I really think about it, I just feel like crying(can't cry though, must act macho)
About how lucky I am.
Even though sometimes, people really wear me out. But there are still some who won't fail to put a smile on my face. Usually when I'm down, I don't talk about it. You might be able to see it through my facial expression, even though I claim I'm OK. But in actual fact. I'm not. I slug around, totally depressed and moody. The only time when I talk about my problems with someone else is when I really don't know what to do.
I dedicate this post to none other than my friends and family. You guys can't imagine how special and lucky I feel right now.
Thank You.
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"Lunfy", haha. I'm 19 this year. I like loud people, sports, gym, dancing, singing, the beach, whatever that makes me feel alive. Well, I guess I'll look like any other guy out on the street if you see me. Just like how everyone looks like. But if you do take the time and trouble to know the people you deemed "similar" and "insignificant", the world wouldn't look so big anymore. I like being nice to people, people whom I've never known, seen or spoken to before. Pretty much random acts of kindness, not caring to whom, what, when or where. But too bad, almost no one in this country doesn't really know how to react to kindness. Either they'll act as if nothing happened or stare at you like some freak. I always believed that a single smile can change someone's life totally. I'm a heavy chain smoker, but I did manage to cut down alot this year. I appreciate a wide range of music. I hate the fact that some people label themselves with genres and be so narrow-minded about music. I believe no one can find true love, because it finds you. Till then, please be patient. Don't go starting off meaningless relationships or relationships you know that won't last. I hate the fact that out in the streets, people are collecting cans for a living while our ministers dance around and earn millions each year. Politics around the world are getting more and more ridiculous each day. To me, there seems to be no such thing as democracy anymore, but downright capitalism everywhere. I support movements for human rights and against animal abuse. Even though our freedom and rights have been taken away by ridiculous laws, I believe we can still make a difference one day. Once I told my friends I'd stay here and fight for what I believe in till I made a difference rather than migrate with them to somewhere else, and I got made fun of. It's okay I guess, because some people don't really understand. I have a bad habit of observing people, their actions, reactions, and attitude. But oh well, at least that makes me get along with almost everyone I meet in my life. I just pity people with social defects.
So that's all for now. Maybe I'll add more stuff soon and maybe some pictures. See ya.
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