Flawed Perfection

2009-01-17T04:00:00.000+08:00

Now playing: Justice - Intro
via FoxyTunes

I guess its too late to wish Happy 2009? Haha.
2009's been really tiring. Just too many things to do, so many places to go, so many people to spend time with. Sometimes I just feel so bad not being able to make it to events because of other plans.

I wonder.....

Been sick the whole day, it sucks.
Next week is the megasuperawesomechaletplusbbqevertobeorganizedbymeandothers. Hope everything goes well.

I'd like to know what goes through everyone's head all the time. Please give me this power.

2008-12-03T01:58:00.000+08:00

I am so exhausted.
Exhausted in my damn brain.

2008-09-17T23:03:00.004+08:00

I never asked for these thoughts.
I never wanted such complexity.
But it's too late.
My life is forever cursed with such control of my thoughts.
To the point of no control at all.
How disappointed I am for it all to be this way.
Where everything I hoped for my heart is nothing but a silhouette, far far away.
Because it all seems worthless by the mind.

I want normal back.

2008-09-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

Why?
Because I'm afraid.
Afraid of it all.
Afraid to the point where I hate it.
Hate it to the core.
And seek for something perfect.
I'm not ignorant.
I do not ignore because I couldn't care less.
I ignore because of fear.

I am afraid.

2008-09-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

I have a dream.
Well, I have many dreams.
Let me share some of them with you.

I want to travel the world and capture amazing moments I only see on televisions or magazines. I want to help poor people around the world. I wanna make everyone feel happy and loved. Make people feel that they're not followers/zombies/slaves of a system cycle. Not continuing with a flow that's unconsciously against their will. I want to make people feel empowered. To feel that every single one of them is able to shape the world. To make the world realize that they should never ever do anything that will have negative effects to any party. To make use of advantage, but never mix it with desire. To be happy with what they already have, rather than to what they will have in the future. No corruption. No exploitation. No capitalism. No conflicts.

Wouldn't it be nice to live in such a world?
I guess such a world is impossible to shape from the current one.
But it never hurts to try our best.
What do we have to lose?

2008-08-25T04:32:00.001+08:00

Memories are forever.
Memories, from everyone.

I have a random story.
I'll tell you at night.
=]

2008-08-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

Kickass.

2008-08-22T13:07:00.001+08:00

I missed my first paper WTF?
GOOD JOB. 8 HOURS OF STUDY GOES TO WASTE.

2008-08-19T03:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, its just hard to feel alive. One way or another, life will soon give you a beat down making you feel so pathetic and miserable.

Sometimes, I wonder why is it so hard for people to just be nice. Why must they always see the worst of people and shun them away. Have you ever took the time to find out someone's real nature? To find any good that's left in them?

Everyone has good in them. And that is why everyone should be appreciated.

I've met so many types of people in my life. But one thing I realized today is that the best moment I've had with people is when I see them smile. Nothing else beats a smile.

Man I like this skin.

2008-06-19T08:28:00.000+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging much.
And I know I've been gone for a very long time.
From outings, chalets, bbqs, meetups, birthdays and all.

Great memories.
I'm gonna miss those times.

Life just changes. The world changes.
I still remember those words.
"We'll be the ones that sit back and look on as people change."

I don't know whether what I'm doing is sitting back, or changing.
And I'm wondering for someone else too.

Somehow, everything just seems so blur.
So...."passed".

Everyone's in a cluster.
And all the love's that been shared,
that echoes through the walls,
seem to have been blown away,
blown away by the wind.

It's just been so very disappointing.
I'm sorry.

2008-04-18T01:22:00.000+08:00

Okay, it's been like since a bazillion years(a few months) since I've blogged. I have nothing much to blog abt though.
FOW/FOC is over, it was a blast.
Nothing more to say cos I'm damn lazy to type out the details.

Seriously, nothing good really comes out of my head when I attempt to blog all the time.
For instance, being too distant or fucking ignored and being insignificant to certain people. Seriously, I know maybe I've been MIA for too long and shit. But, like wtf. Nevermind.

I don't really care anymore, since I've blogged it out. Do whatever shit. Leave me alone bitches.
Come talk to me if you feel like it then.

2008-02-04T13:22:00.000+08:00

I find it really DUMB to EMO when you're swamped with problems.
'Cos how I feel, ANGER really helps alot more.

SO FUCK YOU BITCHES.

2008-01-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

A while more....
Just a little while more...

2007-12-09T19:35:00.001+08:00

Oh well, here I am at Downtown East, "studying". Let me blog while I have some free idle time here.
Quite long since I've blogged. Too caught up in last minute submissions, work, late night thon sessions (yes, I need it for de-stressing).
SO......
I've lost all idea and memory to blog about. Ok, 20% left on laptop. Ok lets start abit.

Submissions: Done mostly.
Study for Term Test.
Holidays, hmm. Maybe I'll just slack, around, go for gigs, and OH YES! CHALETS!!
Ahhhh I'm freakin bored.
Well, I guess I'll post another one later. Battery's dying soon.

2007-11-20T13:52:00.000+08:00

Must...not....delete...angry...post.
HAHA.
Ok I think I'll leave it there.

2007-11-15T15:31:00.000+08:00

Yeah, SO WHAT?
So what if I didn't get into TPRawks while almost 75% of everybody I know got in?
What? Am I supposed to keep quiet and emo, dwell on that matter forever like some shitbag?

HELL NO

It's time I went out and have some real fun. Out of my plastic self to have my definition of FUN in my heart. Well, I tried this week, and it seems that it's not really well-liked. They prefer the fluffy smiley and nice luffy. NOT THE FUCKING IDIOT JUMPING AROUND HEADBANGING AND SCARING THE SHITFUCKS OUT OF PEOPLE.

Some people just can't understand it. They having too much of the nice fun to even think in our perspective. And they can just JUDGE people like that.

If I'm gonna be emo all the time, alone everytime when everyone is in some, e.g. "FUN S.U. Event", then why the hell should I stay in TP?

It's freaking time I got back to my roots.
And have a kickass time.
NOT sulking while waiting hours for people to finish doing their fun stuff.
Now why should I care about THOSE people think of me then?

Yes. This is me. Now deal with the fact that I'm not that fluffy all the time.
I have to post this because I have the tendency to keep my anger inside if I dont let it out somewhere bit by bit, or not it's all just gonna blow out on some point.

The last time it did, I lost a friend. I don't wanna take anymore chances cause I really love everyone of you guys. (:

Sorry for all the vulgar words used and the people being targetted. It's better to get to the point than beating around the bush.

2007-11-12T08:54:00.000+08:00

"Some people fall in love with their eyes, but some fall in love with their hearts"

Long lasting love is built on a strong foundation and the ability to see the future of being together, being able to wake up to the words "I Love You" every single morning. The ones who refuse to think far, will most probably end up having just a short temporary high and a heartbreaking end.

Do not take love for granted. Stop breaking hearts and wasting memories.

2007-11-02T18:35:00.000+08:00

Someone once told me that if you continue judging people and studying their actions all your life, you will never have time for love.

I don't know. Ever since my life changed, I have this keen interest in figuring out people, who they really are, both inside and outside. I love to study their actions, their reactions to stuff and their trademarks. I like to see how their mind works, how they see things from their perspective. Then, I draw out a pattern in my mind, and predict every single thing they make. Till I can even know whether they're uncomfortable, pissed or disturbed just by the look on their face and the sound of their voice. It's amusing somehow to study people in general. But I guess it's kinda bad to be treating your friends like guinea pigs in this huge cage of a world.

And there's the part where I can see the ones who are good-hearted. Good-natured ones whose spirits seem to radiate in some attracting glow. The ones that I really feel would make a great life partner or soulmates or best friends. But the problem is that, I don't really know how to put it to them. They might not realize it, and some of them may have been suffering in silence. But if I could just make someone's day just by telling them that they're a nice person (without sounding creepy or sarcastic), there would be so much less depressed souls.

The world is weird. Well, what you mostly see that's typed here is due to the reason that I really have too much idle time where my mind drifts off deeper into my own dimension to further understand how my own mind works, so that I'm able to apply that to a different subject. Ok, chim stupid shit that was. But who cares, that's how I feel what all these stuff are like.

But seriously. There really are a lot of nice people out there. All they need is happiness. Then, they are the ones that will bring happiness to the rest.

Goodnight.

2007-10-29T09:13:00.000+08:00

HOOORAY. LUFFY UPDATES.
At last, I have the time to update. (Skipping lecture for this, LOL)
NO, I'm not skipping lecture just to blog. Have some other stuff to do.

Tagboard:

Sarah: HELLO MMM. hahahaaa/
Angie: ANGIIEE WANNGIIIEEE =D
SNA: No problem bro (:

WAAAAAGHHHHH, It's been too long and I dont remember half the stuff I did since I last blogged.

Before Hari Raya = 60kg
After Hari Raya = 65kg

Get the picture?

Hahaa.

Moving on.
Hmm. Wait, let me upload some pics.
...............................................................
Done!

Nat brought me to Snakeweed Studio, and I think it's a freaking damn cool place la. You can like meet the local artists and all. And I got to see LORD NAGRATH's METAL PAGE, which was filled with 'Nat play lantern' and Nat this and thats. LOL.
Spending his holidays there is good for his future I think, eh Mr SoundEngineer/ProDrummer? =D

After that, went to Homeclub with Flybar. Lol, Ian(vocalist) was so damn excited cos his first album just came back from the States after Mastering. Claims it was AudioOrgasm. LOL. And it indeed, it was.
Support LocalMusic people!!

Still kinda struggling with my portfolio abit. The photography parts are fine, even though I don't have a decent camera. But sketching and illustrations are kinda hard (hello, mr secschool with no art stream). Nevertheless, it's still fun.

And lastly, MEGAAADEEETHHHH. WOOHOOOO.
They were damn good, but the problem was that I spent most of the time trying to breathe instead of singing along. Got tired getting squashed and all, so moved back into the moshpit, and it was FREAKING hell lot better after getting half-naked in wide open space, tossed around and all. But hey, at least I could breathe.

I'm just making a quick post now, cos I have some stuff to do. Cya guys later.

Beautiful Beautiful Temasek Poly! =D

2007-10-14T02:51:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA KEPADA UMAT ISLAM SELURUH NEGARA.
OOH HAPPY DAY!

LOL. I had the urge to exclaim this loudly. Wahaha.
Quite long didn't type any malay here.
So, there you go. (:

HAVE A NICE DAY PPL! =D

2007-10-09T02:50:00.000+08:00

Haha, yeah, I guess everyone wants to know why am I so EMO here.

Well actually, it's the only place I do emo. Well, everyone needs a place to dwell on sadness and depression. I'm just human, even though I try hard, I still can't stop myself from being negative at times. I guess I still have to work on myself.

Heh, at least this is the ONLY place I do emo. I'm still Luffy outside. baha.

Oh, and I LOVE all you donkeys to bits. xD
Cya!

2007-10-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

Just wanna be alone.
By the beach.
Listening to the waves.
And the laughter of youth.

Away. Away from all the predictable annoying shits in the world.

It's not that I hate you, or not happy for you.
It's not that I WANT to treat you this way.

But it's the fact that people can be so damn predictable.
And I hate it.
I hate things that pop out in my head to come true.

Yes, for once, let me be wrong.
Although I still hate the fact that you're just like the others.
Whatever, it's your life, and I can't do shit about it.

Take this as whatever you want.
A goodbye or a good luck. Whatever.
You choose.

btw.
UNITIANS PLEASE FINISH YOUR PROMOS AND BE DONE WITH IT I MISS ALL OF YOU MONKEYS SO MUCH. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

2007-09-16T07:21:00.000+08:00

UNITY DINNER/AARON(tehghey)'s Birthday :D

Dinner last night with unitians at CCK Park :D omg, I seriously do miss them. I missed how someone will surely laugh every single minute, how retarded everyone can be, how similar we all can be. I didn't really realize how much I've missed them after going to TP, till Yelyn started emo-ing and fantasizing and stuff about how will we be like in the future. Like, ending up at each others' weddings and stuffs. lol. I just realized, I really am not THAT alone at all, hahaa. Okay, shut up social insecurity.

The food was damn ALOT, and nice too (except the Tom Yam Soup, to my disappointment, hah.) Went to play NA GE DONG SI at the playground. Haha, that thing rocks. Sat down and played this game which eventually made everyone hate each other, hahha, well not really. Walked back with Bao Xiang down EMO Yew Tee/CCK road.

At times like these is when I really want to freeze time, and just make things stay the way they are. (:
Well, not really NOW, cos I wouldn't want them get stuck in time everyday dreading their PROMOS. LOL.
Upload pictures soon. Cya.

2007-08-26T17:40:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I took 307 around Choa Chu Kang. A LONG while. And boy, quite alot of stuff has changed. Choa Chu Kang MRT is now full of shops and shiet, CCKCC undergoing some renovation, the dumb shopping centre/residence they're building is quite tall now.

Went to polyclinic in the morning to get MC for work, had diarrhoea and food poisoning. Was sick the whole week. It's kinda ok if I'm sick, but one thing I hate is at the point where I'm damn sick and all, and I have to tell my mom, she won't believe me. She always think I'm lazy when I tell her I'm sick. That, or she blames my eating and sleeping habits ALL THE TIME, which is damn stupid. Is it just so hard to accept the fact that I'M SICK BECAUSE I GOT SICK, and not blame it on other things. PLEASE.

Ooh! Project Portfolio. I'm gonna be all over Singapore, taking nice pictures for my portfolio and camping at school from dawn till dusk sketching structures and stuffs. After exams that is.

Ok, random pictures time.

A boat made from crabclaws LOL.

A common sight in the library during project week.

And isn't this damn nice? Only going at $45.
My mom made it, a watch made with Swarvorski Pearls.
Limited Edition :D
I think it's damn unique.

2007-08-25T19:33:00.000+08:00

Is it just me? Or am I getting happier and carefree day by day, while my friends emo more often? Those "sit-down-and-think-while-observing-much-of-the-surrounding" syndromes have appeard almost in everyone that I've known well enough.
I don't know. Just a feeling.

Well, whatever everyone's going through, it's just temporary lah. I have that syndrome everyday, and it gets really depressing and mind-killing at times. But it's the way I see the world that prevents me from getting depression or dwelling too much on such thoughts.

Yeah, I know, all the "been there done that" thing.
I should be in Psychology or something. Seriously.
Nah. LOL. It sounds fun, but I'd lose interest sooner or later.
What I've known about the mind and human emotions/instincts is enough.
Or else, I might be the one ending up with depression.

2007-08-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

Im freaking confused now.
WILL DESIGN SCHOOL HAVE AN OCTOBER INTAKE OR NOT!?
Amos says no.
Ronald says Moses says there is. And he's 100% sure there is.
whatever it is.
PLEASE I DONT WANT TO SPEND ANOTHER TERM IN I.T.
Although I.T. has been my whole life and all, and I probably can troubleshoot quite well.
BUT YEAH, I HATE IT, SICK OF IT, AND ITS STRESSFUL.

Yeah, I know, I've been quite a prodigy in computers ever since 5/6 years old when I learned how to use the computer through MS DOS, during times when computers had GUI, or in layman's terms, the interface. And how I picked up HTML in primary school after tampering around with blogskins and source codes, and started designing my own blogskins. Yeah, that's all fun, but I don't want to do all those stuff as a JOB or something to do during the rest of my life.

I'm just in it for the games and expanding ma knowledge of IT yo. Programming's all fancy and interesting and all, but it just ain't my passion. It's like, when you do something, you get that "EGH" feeling in your heart, saying like "WOAH, IM DOING WHAT I LIKE. I LOVE MY LIFE".

It was during secondry school when I picked up photography, that I suddenly had this "EGH" feeling. AND IT FEELS DAMN GOOOOOD to have uber nice pictures. (But too bad, my com crashed, all the pictures are gone. ftw) Art was damn fun in secondry school days, too bad my school didn't have Art Streams. ):

What I can tell is that where my passion really lies is in the Arts. I never really had an ambition since young. And I wondered what would I be when I grow up. Of course, there's always the "LIVE YOUR LIFE IN ARMY" plan, but it's kinda lame. I.T. proffesional? YAWN.

But one day, I thought, what if I can just do anything I want. Even if there is no income, that's where my passion lies, and that's all enough. I want to live my life doing something I love. Not to make money. Not because I'm forced. Not to shine. But just because I like it. And I've thought hard. I guess what I want to do is get better at is mainly photography and painting.

Which reminds me, I did have an ambition. It was during Sec3 when I realized, I wanted to be a photojournalist, travel around the world taking pictures. And when I grow old, spend my days painting. Then I would share my photos and paintings with my grandchildren.

Awwww. Good ending. HAHAHAHA. wow, its all so planned out. I hope it goes that way then.

Ok. Time to play something. I'm getting bored.
GOOSMORNING EVERYONE! :D

2007-08-08T10:31:00.000+08:00

WAAARRRRGHHHH.
WEEE WEEE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Go away emo posts! Luffy wants to smile :D

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Now playing: Muse - Time is Running Out
via FoxyTunes

2007-08-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I just think I dream too much. Too much of a life that I'm too damn used to. I'm really fickle-minded. I guess I inherited that from an old friend, haha.
Usually, during those hour-long mrt or bus rides alone, other than listening to the radio, all I can do is think about my whole life. It's good I guess, to think once in a while, but not EVERY SINGLE DAY. Life will be full of insecurities and disappointments if you did that. I know, I've tried.

Every single day, I would think about something. Could've started from anything that pops up in my head. Like whether I can really get into Design School next sem, or should I just go get a motorcycle license next year even though my mom disapproves of it. Or stuff like when should I start looking for a girlfriend(hah), should I get Oakley sunglasses, blablabla. But it always ends the same every single time I start thinking. It always ends at the point where I realized, as if I could understand everyone in the world, and life itself, unaffected by feelings or biased thinking.

Once again, I ask myself. How long should I hide in this shell? As long as everyone's happy?
I just really wonder sometimes, about the few people who know who I really am, and the rest who laughs at that orange-haired kid, the rest who I love entertaining. Hah.

Hmph.
Sometimes, all I want is just for everyone to recognise my good intentions.
And not have that twisted notion like "oh, he's just like any other guy. insensitive, muscle-brain, oogle's at girls all day, watches soccer and dont really care the shit about the whole universe".

p.s. I've been up for 33 hours.
THANK YOU COCA-COLA! Caffeine is TEH sex. hahha.
Damn, I'm so gonna age faster. -.-

2007-08-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of it. I don't get why you have to do that all the time. Simply pushing everything else away when you've found something new.
I'm not gonna tail you around anymore, thinking that my presence can at least cheer you up when you're down. Because you have enough people to keep you happy, and you forget about the rest.

But sometimes, you just don't realize how damn lucky you are.

But after thinking more about it, I really feel it's a waste of time dwelling on such matters. Unlike you, I have a greater perspective and understanding of the world. Because things that've happened are simply read chapters in a book. No use re-reading them if you know what happens next.

I'll move on.

2007-07-30T13:45:00.000+08:00

The 2 most annoying people you can go out with.

DenisePigu and DeannaMonster. LOL.

Hahhaa. It's okay Denise. I know you wanna go out with me cos I'm the cool shit yo and all. HAHAHAHAHA.

Caught "The Simpsons Movie". And I totally laughed through the whole movie like nobody's business. IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LA. Don't know whats wrong with them. I can just laugh at every part man.

Denise's Ice Lemon Tea. and I had to finish 3/4 of it lol.

I actually looked kinda good here. HAHAHAH.

a touch of vanity makes the whole world kin :D

piggin out on banana split. heh.

oh well. nice weekend.

Delifrance is nice. :)

ok. back to work. :(

2007-07-28T16:32:00.000+08:00

One reason why I don't get angry anymore.

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one.
You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed.

2007-07-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

It's funny.
How people can just forget.
and somehow, everything just turns cold.
(:

The fate of an elm tree in a cold hard winter.
Though survived, the end will be bitter.
Gone forever, the life-giving glitter.
But it's spirit. You can never hinder.

Out open field, he observes from afar.
Infectable minds, all left ajar.
Too far to reach, he can't cross the bar.
The dark forces; he was never on par.

Years go by, he grows strangely weak.
As he strives on and grows to his peak.
Although tall, he was never so big.
It's all too tiring; he's beat.

2007-07-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

Somehow, this doesn't feel like home anymore.

Random Pictures.

ok bye.

2007-07-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

As he looks over to his sides, keen to strike up a conversation or just to seek comfort in a familiar face, reality strikes him. There wasn't anyone beside him at a time like this. Even though this has been going on for years, from his childhood, he often forgets of the lonesome he's engulfed in. He shifts his attention to the floor of the train where he starts to define his meaning in life, only to realize the same emptiness over and over again.

He steps out of the train and makes his way to his destination. Sometimes if he's lucky, he gets to see familiar faces. But then again, such things seldom happen.

As he reaches, he feels lost. There's still 20 mins. He shrugs off the feeling and makes his way to a table. He looks around. Everyone seems to be with someone else. Like a cold arrow, the awkward silence..lonesome. He flips out his laptop, the only friend he has at such times.

Lunch. Cafeteria was packed full. He makes his way to a table...If he's lucky, someone he knows might come up and sit with him. But then again, such things seldom occur. He flips out his only friend, ignoring stares and weird glances from tables around.

He likes to do what he loves best. But often, the things he does are not always shared or enjoyed by his friends. He finds another kind of loneliness. One where he does what he loves best, but not being able to share that joy with someone else. He tries to make new friends but they often just last the whole day. Just a "Hi Bye" thing.

The sky darkens. It's time to go home. He stares out the bus window, under the cold blast of the AC, numbing the pain he feels everytime he glances at the empty row of seats beside him. He asks himself Why. Everyone always has someone to go everywhere with. Why not him. He falls asleep thinking of such things for too long.

Even though it was depressing, it was normal to him. A normal feeling though, but the idea of the whole thing was definitely not normal to him. All he could do was shrug it off. Maybe it's because he doesn't believe in having very close friends anymore, or the idea of forming cliques. All he wants is to be friends with everyone, but maybe that comes with a price. The price of having someone to be with during the times when he was alone.

He's in a jar of matchsticks. There are blue ones, green ones and red ones. He's the burnt one. But yet, he's still a matchstick.

Maybe such situations are inevitable. He knows he has the power to understand beyond maturity, beyond the human limits. But he's still human. And he has feelings, that are yet, still hard to be understood.
Being able to understand the world, but not yourself.
You have a long way to go man.

2007-07-07T14:11:00.000+08:00

My patience has run out.
My passion has run dry.

I'm sick and tired of the fact that to shine anywhere in a country like this, skill isn't the number 1 factor. But its the connections you have that is the most important. I've seen it for myself.

Its the end of the line for the game here.
For me.
The oval ball.
The sweat.
The blood.

The last I played with pride and passion.

Its time to move on to something new.

2007-06-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

*updated 28/6 1230

Hmph. I miss goofing off with Kim :(

and yes I'm feeling kinda lazy.
3 projects not done, most due next week.

GG.

Nah. Somehow, I'll manage.
I won't take back my words.
I'm gonna top my class.

Then, transfer to some other course next semester or year.
Heh.

2007-06-22T17:42:00.000+08:00

I don't know why.
But I just feel so sad when I look at this picture.

Which reminds me of this story.
There was this little girl once, and she had a white fluffy bunny.
Her bunny was called Fluffy, and she would carry Fluffy everywhere she went.
She did almost everything with Fluffy. She would play her toys with Fluffy, and at night, she would tell bedtime stories to him. She loved Fluffy, and I guess he loved her too, 'cos he would never run too far away from her and would happily hop into her arms whenever she called him. Fluffy even knew when to wake the little girl up every morning.
But one day.
Little girl woke up late that morning.
She thought Fluffy was just tired so she let him sleep awhile longer.
But you know what?
Fluffy never woke up.
Fluffy died.
Little girl got so sad, she committed suicide.
Little girl's parents became depressed.
They quarrelled and divorced. Not long later, they died due to stress.
Their families were left in a wreck of sorrow and depression.
More bad things happened, and the sadness was rippled throughout the whole country.
In every form of possible. Economical. Social. Psychological.

Now you tell me.
If Fluffy didn't die that day.
What would have happened?
Would little girl still be alive? Only to die in a car accident the next day? Maybe to suffer for the rest of her life from a chronic disease? Or maybe got kidnapped, mutilated and sold to other countries? Okay, enough sadist talk.
If one bunny could make such an impact.

Why can't you?
You'll never know.
Even if it's small.
What you did could actually change someone's life forever.

Because all of us are in each other's hands.
Save a life.

2007-06-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

Sento Pics.

cheeeesecake :D

I don't know. Is this life?
I find myself nowadays, sitting on rocks or just lying on the grass under the stars, looking so far out into the universe. Sometimes, I just wish I could reach out to those stars. Maybe move 'em around or something. Maybe I could change the world, or at least, make a difference in someone's life. It's okay if you don't get what I'm trying to say. Sometimes I don't understand myself too.

jump shots are always cool. heh.

I'm tired.
But I can't help it. Just have to push on. For love and passion. Well, mostly passion. But what's more important; my group of lovely everybodies. To let loose and just jump for joy as we crap and entertain each other's antics. It's nice to know you have so many people who would jump with you anytime you feel so frustrated. Luffy loves everyone, and he doesn't HATE or get angry (: Only emo at times okayy.

*whoosh

You can't avoid it.
There are always those times when you just feel so abandoned and lonely. Then the feeling of being unwanted creeps in, and you start to think of silly things, which won't feel so silly during those times. You can't wait for the next day to start because you want to see everyone again.
If it's possible, I just want everyone to live in a super huge mansion together. But nah, that just sounds too impossible.

I can go on and on about everything, but I'm just too darn tired now, and I probably won't continue it if I leave this hanging. I'll just end with pictures now.

twin (:

YTB :D

youshiaaa!

I'll end here. Goodnight/morning people.

2007-06-16T16:31:00.000+08:00

First up, Replies to Tags. :D

dallas >>> haha, no need to see la, just know nicer than yours can liao. hahaha.

angie >>> Hahhahaha. :D, ill still call you chubby wubby though.

joey >>> it got too annoying. hahaha.

daniel >>> heh. nth la. wah basket, like that lor

sarah >>> Hhahahaha. Ill slowly cut down that nickname :D

Ok, I was gonna post pics. But got lazy. Do it tomorrow!

2007-06-15T02:21:00.000+08:00

East Coast Park pictures! :D

Super Low 6! Hahaha.

Slacking. Bitching. Gossiping. Emo-ing. Unity Unite Reunited!

2007-06-13T15:23:00.000+08:00

Goodbye wonderful cute fluffy hair. Luffy will miss you.

Mark of the BLOOB! Evil Twin I miss you!

Let your inner chic shine!

Now my hair's like, so ub3r freaking short. Oh wells. Give it a few months, it's gonna be HOT! :D

Went for dinner at some Jetty Restaurant thingy called 'Saujana' at Malaysia on Sunday. AHH WHEN AM I GONNA GET A NEW PHONE. OR CAMERA. I NEED A CAMERA. I keep using my siblings' phones to camwhore. And the show it off to my friends. Ftwbbq. Should've deleted them after sending 'em to Mr.lappy, transfer to an SD card, put the SD card into an mp3 player, connecting the mp3 player to the PC, and transfer from there, edit them, then upload to Photobucket. :0 (gasps for air). Yea, cool process huh? =.='
Anyways, here's some pics.

FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD.

Didn't have much appetite that day, knowing that I was gonna miss THE BIG GROOVE 2007, one of Asia's largest Hip Hop Festival. Whacking Crew Orchestra (W.C.O.) from Japan and Ground Scatter Crew from Thailand ARE PERFORMING!!!!!11!11

Also, other dance crews. T.P. DANCE ENSEMBLE! YOU GUYS DID GREAT! w00t. :D

Yeah, but last minute, realized could still make it to the concert, 30mins late. It's better than nothing, and it was worth rushing all the way from Johore, then cabbing down to Expo.

Having first modern dance lesson tomorrow, after that, I guess I'll be slacking with MWC guys all the way till next morning. SO EXCITING. LOL. Hahaha. Okay. Nights!

2007-06-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

Background.
In Silence.
Looks on.
Days. Months. Years.
Every Single Moment.
Remembered.
Every Single Thing.
Kept.
Presence.
Is all that's needed.

All. Just a razorblade stuck in the heart.
Now shoo.

2007-06-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pictures to come.... :D

2007-06-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

I WANT WOOOSHIES. :D :D :D

2007-05-31T03:06:00.000+08:00

Cried in the library alone.

http://www.makeadifferencemovie.com

2007-05-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging this at the last sane bit of my mind. I don't know whether I can take another day like this anymore. Ear-splitting headache, rides back home that really drain out the energy in you, and the constant absence from my CCAs. I don't know whether I would still be blogging here if I had went for rugby today. Coming home at 8pm is the earliest I can do on a Monday. Had a 4 hour nap.

Even my kness kept buckling on the MRT ride. Standing up for an hour and 15mins could be peanuts for some people. But try doing it with mental fatigue. After half an hour trying my best to stand up, I just can't take it anymore and slumped to the floor.
Mid-Sems Tests are coming. PRSP = GG.
F*ck programming.

I've been thinking too freaking much about the transfer. "What if I can't get in?" 's been hammering my mind every single day. Every single f*cking day I would think about it, every single minute, single second.

The reason I woke up is not to blog. But to finish up my WDS proposal. F*ck this. I should get started.

Hope I don't pass out on the comp table again tonight.

2007-05-23T17:57:00.000+08:00

Give me the strength, all the way till September ends.

2007-05-23T13:07:00.000+08:00

Went to EvilTwin Mandy *Bloob*'s BBQ birthday party for both her birthday and her boyfriend's.
I must say, the sweetest couple I've seen for a very VERY long time.

And I love my favourite druggie girl!! :D Yes, I had a manicure.

Shrek Family. Heh.

And please remember. Keep Luffy away from pizzas. Thank you.

3 hungry people + 2 large pizzas = Madness.
Ok. Gonna go do some art. Yeah, art. ftw. G'nite.

2007-05-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

I just don't know anymore.
I guess the answer will come when 2 black holes meet.

2007-05-17T02:49:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE PLEASE.
WEAR A PUPLE SHIRT AND AN EYEPATCH.
THEN STAB ME IN MY RIGHT EYE.

it hurts~ ):

2007-05-16T16:00:00.000+08:00

I should stop musing so much. I'm getting nowhere.
I'm lazy. So I'll just summarize tonight.

Doing fitness at night is not cool. Not cool at all.
Stamina training's been tough lately. Very tough. Shouldn't have slacked so much the last 4 months.
Hope I get into both dances, Modern and Hip Hop. 1 is fine.
PRSP is like, freaking wtfbbq. Screw programming. Screw Alice.
I need a job. To pay for my laptop/books and re-dye my hair.
I miss so many people.
Did I mention I hate PRSP?
And. That's all I guess.

Here are some nonsensical pictures. Enjoy.

Kenn's demonic powers. Floating a ring in mid-air.

Kenn's Scandal. WHO's THAT GIRL!?

LOL

2007-05-14T15:37:00.000+08:00

I want to study hard and do REALLY well for Semester 1.
Then transfer to Design next Semester. Please Please PLEEASEEE.

Hide says Hi. :D

2007-05-12T09:36:00.000+08:00

Mai Feng gets a twit-ty haircut. TJ goes gay. Oh we are screwed. Haahaha.

2007-05-09T13:00:00.000+08:00

No, this has nothing to do with what you think I'm trying to say.
You may think you're right, but no. No one knows what I'm trying to say here.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Its all too sad. To be thrusted somewhere you can never belong. It wasn't your choice, and you only have time to blame this facade of comfort and security. You never asked for it, but now, its all too late. You can't turn back to your kin, because you can't even look at them. The absence of their ways and influences have worsened the situation and you grimace at the sight of their actions, and them being what they are. You make sacrifices just to feel wanted, but feeling wanted is never enough. You know you are missing something. You are missing that of which you can never resist to feel. You know it won't happen, but you just keep trying. So you drift away. You know you can't get too close, because you can't control it. You love every moment of it, and with everyone else. But at the end of the day, you just stand out too much. At the end of the day, you find yourself alone, staring out the window.
At the end of the day, maybe all you just need is a heart-warming reassuring hug, to dissolve that burden over your heart.

I'll go.

2007-05-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

Bring out your inner chic. =D

2007-05-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

Perhaps there are some things in this world that we are not meant to understand. And obviously, there are many things that can't be understood or avoided at all in life. But what if I told you, you could. What if everyone knew what is the meaning to life. What if everyone just decided that there was no need for all this shit to happen between them, and we could all live in peace. When food shortages are never a problem anymore, or when we at last could rid poverty off our people and off the face of the earth.
Of course. All of us would want that to happen. But it won't, and it never will. For mankind is flawed. We were never meant to be put in this world and cooperate with each other till the end. If only everyone could THINK.

That's just my insight of thinking on a global scale. Yeah, probably I don't know much, and just sitting here, flapping my gums on how easy it is to live. I may be wrong, but heck, that's my opinion. Now, back to a more personal scale.

Perhaps the need that I felt in me could be avoided, and even understood. For I already have before once, I guess it won't be so hard the 2nd time. Hmph. Emotions are really bothersome sometimes. Even though the hollow has been there for quite awhile, I guess there is nothing much more to do other than covering it up. The day will come. For now, lets just surpress that unimportant need and enjoy life.

2007-05-05T13:38:00.000+08:00

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

- I'm HIGH 24/7. (except during lectures)

- When I tie my hair, people think I'm 20+

- I hate my split personality.

- I love TP.

- I miss everyone when I go home.

- I spend on eating too much.

- I like turkey bacon.

7 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF

- Flying roaches.

- Losing valuables.

- Losing close friends.

- Maggots. Lots and lots of maggots.

- Being in a fast car.

- Accidents.

- Breaking bones

7 RANDOM SONGS

- Lifehouse - You Belong To Me

- TSPO - Tetris

- Deadeye Dick - New Age Girl

- Amon Amarth - Death In Fire

- Muse - Starlight

- Red Hot Chilli Peppers - By The Way

- The Fray - How To Save A Life

7 THINGS I LOVE

- Friends

- Food

- Rugby

- ZILRA

- TP

- Pool

- Valuables

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST

- FTW?

- ZOMGWTF

- WTFBBQ

- YAYYYYY

- Er

- =D

- D:

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS

Nah, noone.

2007-05-05T11:48:00.000+08:00

The boys watch the girls while the girls watch the boys who watch the girls go by.
Eye to eye, they solemnly convene to make the scene.

2007-05-04T05:00:00.000+08:00

Who says 1 HOUR bus rides at 6am can't be fun?

The ninja returns. :D

2007-05-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

5am

Stayover at Kleon's house. I think the only person awake in the house is me. Sunny, Andrew, Kleon and Kim are all sleeping. Zz. The rest went out for prata. I think my legs won't be able to take me that far. Oh yeah, today marks the day that I am blogging for the first time on my laptop! w00t! :D

WirelessFest! Haven't installed Warcraft 3 or any other games yet, so I'll have to settle with Goundbound for now.

Ok, my body is like, aching and super tired from yesterday's training. It's been like what, 4 MONTHS without proper exercise? zomgwtfbbq? My right thigh can cramp anytime. Ugh. Oh well, I guess its gonna take hardwork and a bloody hell lot of determination to regain my skill+stamina.

OH, AND WTF, THE MUD FROM THE FIELD REALLY smells like shit.

Okay wtf I almost fell asleep. Better finish this now. I'm starting to get really sleepy.

2007-04-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

It is shocking to discover that fact about myself.
Well, not quite. Maybe it's because I don't even have the desire. But it really reminds me of a conversation I once had over a phone with a certain friend. I could hear how hard he was holding his tears back as he poured everything out, and all I could do is listen. I can't share his pain, I can't do anything more. But now, I do know how he feels, and how it feels like. I don't know wtfbbq happened. Since graduation, wait, no, since Samantha. Or was also because of that incident a few months ago? I don't really know, but I guess what happened a few months ago made things worse. It's torture. And the insecurity is killing me. I've understood. It's not the desire. It's the need.

I don't care.
I just need you to be by my side.
A pal, a close friend, whatever.
I need you.

2007-04-22T16:16:00.000+08:00

Thanks Mr Hitoshi Nirei!
[Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra Photographer]

2007-04-18T02:41:00.000+08:00

My data cable is with my bro. I CAN'T UPLOAD PHOTOS.
This is like, so annoying.

Later.

2007-04-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

Okay, I have offically rested enough, and 3/4 of my voice is back.
TEMASEK POLY FRESHMEN ORIENTATION CAMP ROCKSS!!!!!! :D
I'm starting to miss everyone already, and my wonderful wonderful empire+sub-empire, ZILRA and ZILRI :DDDDD. *fyi empires = OGs
ZILRA OII!!
But pity, my phone went dead halfway through the camp, and all I could take was a picture of my buddies and 3 spastic GLs from Kaistor who we thon-ed the 2nd night with, irritating and annoying the crap out of anyone walking past the corridors.

The first day was quite boring, everyone was shy and quiet, and I could see the GL's trying REALLY hard to get us to cheer and sing. Icebreakers were fun. Met quite alot of fun people.
OKAY I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I FORGOT MOST OF THE FIRST DAY. :(
Haaha. Okay, the food was fine, I THINK, but I don't know, is it just me, or am I the only one starving half to death throughout the whole camp? But the food was good, only the quantity.

The 2nd day was much much much better. More fun games. Nice-but-not-enough food, and YES, the PERFORMANCE NIGHT, MASS-DANCE and JAM&HOP. We acted out a skit, me playing a sissy messenger trying to persuade the king to sell his kingdom. THEN, IT WAS THE MASS-DANCE. WOOHOOO. MARRY MOOOOOOOOOO!! It's a dance that they teach freshies every year during FOC. The song we were dancing to was by Deadeye Dick - New Age Girl. Nice song, thinking of asking my band to come down to TP and play it someday. It'll sure drive the people who went for FOC high. After that we danced the night away in Jam&Hop, turning TP Sports Hall into a mini-club for a night.
Oh yeah, I almost forgot, I didn't know school songs could be so fun to sing and dance to, especially TP's :D

Left to Right: Darren, Sab and Ruslan.
Haha, we are so freaking annoying, all the way from 1am to the next day, 7am. The drama began when Darren banged his head on the water cooler, like WTH?!? hahahahha. Then Sab kept rolling on the floor laughing like mad for about half an hour till she was able to walk properly.
We gathered lots of lines from cheers by other empires and did stuff like this:

Us: Hey, what's the letter before B ah?
Them: Umm, A?
Us: A! A! A! A! AHHHHHHH!

Us: Hey, did you see that!?!
Them: See what?
Us: shi, sha sha shi sha sha, shi, sha sha WOOT WOOT.

Us: Hey! You guys wanna go!?
Them: Go where?
Us: UNDERWEAR! HAHAHA.

Us: Have you guys checked?
Them: Checked what?
Us: CHECKOFIFA! LOL.

and many many many more.
Haha, it's the start of a new tradition! Me and Fiz promised to come back next year as GLs and do stuff like this again. Hahahhaa. :D

Me and Fiz were super high the next morning, cos we didn't sleep. Trying to make everyone high the next morning, but oh well, everyone's too dead, end up losing more voice. 3rd day was uber fun, but was also annoying. We played station games, ALL WET GAMES.

Underwear wet wet! :D

Hahaa. After that we played this game called HUNG-GRY or smth. We had to do silly stuff on a list to get points.

But in the end, we got last place, but oh well, we dont really care about our position. We had FUN. :D
Dozed off while sitting down during the last few hours of the camp, all I could remember was Kim and Fiz slapping my lap so hard, I wanted to cry, but was too tired, so I just stared at them with this dead face 0_0. hahahha.

Then it was Mass-Dance again! and the TP school song! woohoo.
After that, it was the EMO moment, everyone cried and all. =/

Almost the whole camp slacked outside CPF Building's MacDonald. Ate 2 meals(thankgod MacDonald) then headed home. I live damn far you know, everyone LOL-ed at where I lived. So I had to catch the bus early =(((
But in the end, I dozed off at the bustop and saw the last 168 bus drive away, so I was like, WTF?!. Hahaha. Had to cab back home T_T.

I have a feeling the next 3 years in TP will be the best time of my life, even though there's pratically no one I know when I first came :)
Can't wait for my course camp on the 18th-20th.
School starts on the 23rd. :D
TP OI!

2007-04-15T16:29:00.000+08:00

ORIENTATION KICKED ASS.
BLOG LATER. I NEED TO SLEEP :)

2007-04-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

Its hard trying to keep 2 different parts of your life apart because living 2 lives is already as hard as it gets. Certain issues being uber touchy and WILL cause someone to flip out. You can't just mix them both. I know, I've tried. From the looks of it, I won't try it again. Well, you can't expect others who know the both of you to behave in 2 different ways in different situations. Sooner or later, they'll let it slip. You can never trust people with secrets if it was never meant to reach the ears of a third party.

I'm not surprised. Their "I never could've imagined" faces. I get that alot.

Once you trust the wrong person, too late. Just sit back and watch the conflagration burn down your life, slowly and painfully. It's no use trying to explain. And the worse that could happen: Blackmail, either intentionally, or unintentionally. People will do just anything to get back at you.

Once again, I'll type it here again. It's not funny.
Discussing personal matters IN FRONT of a third party is not funny at all.
Even if you're just saying things that are related to it, because to me, you're just giving away hints for the third party to guess.

But oh well. I cant stay angry. Wait, I don't even have to be angry. You will realise yourself what you have done, and seek for an empty forgiveness. And I'll just sit here and stare at the screen or my phone, and laugh. How predictable.

Now, I can't help it but smile. Looking at all this in another way, it's all quite funny.
To be able to understand. Everything being so clear. It's amusing to know you can take thinking to a whole new level.

2007-03-29T07:15:00.000+08:00

Hello, hello, hello. How low? :D

Stayed over at cousin's house 2 days ago to help with his wedding. The most enjoyable time I had in months. WOOT. 1st day wasn't so tiring, because the wedding is on the 2nd day. Did some work here and there, decided to stay over and hang with cousins.

Thats just my eager face. LOL.

As you can see.

Slept only 3 hours and woke up at 8am, cos we thon-ed all the way till 5am, talking crap and eating junk. :D . The start of the first day: 8am, wake up, bathe, straightaway to working. Zzz.
Wore all BLACK instead of RED because I'm the Co-Captain of Dishwashers, but wth, had to wash dishers at last, kids who were supposed to wash 'em gone skiving. I almost dozed off washing dishes, so went to steal some sleep in the praying tent. Hohoho.

FTW! Clogged drainage! Zzz. You can't imagine the stuff you can find in that pool of oily soapy curry-smelling water.

Managed to snap a pic with beloved cuzzy. :D

and YAY. Got to do the honours of carrying the "Bunga Mangga" with my bro.

I never knew weddings could be this fun. :D
Bro's having his wedding in December. Can't wait :D.

2007-03-23T17:40:00.000+08:00

The tiny globe
They wrap their fingers
Around so tightly
With such confidence

Without doubt
They stand up proud
Noses up high
And claim their prominence

Though some are weak
Won't dare to speak
They flame the globe
And stay in abstinence

They were never wrong
To sing their own songs
Of how the globe looks like
Their eyes, from.

To see it clearly is so simple, yet perplexing as distorted by factors in our lives. Learn to see through this mirrored window and you will acquire it yourself, the gift many thought was just plain ignorant, only can be truly understood by maturity itself.

Claws of my ego
Talons of my thoughts
Fangs of my resentment
All forgone.

2007-03-20T04:02:00.000+08:00

**updated**
[note: kudos to Shah, for taking nice pics. If you do find out, I grabbed your photos, cos I didn't take any]

HELLO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! :D
I'm at my gran's house right now, so can't post any pics. I'll do it later :D

Today, I wanna post about the best night of my life. Last night, the
TOKYO SKA PARADISE ORCHESTRA
CONCERT

4 Levels of the ESPLANADE, PACKED FULL, and what seats did we get?

FREAKING 3RD ROW SEATS FROM THE STAGE ZOMG!!!!!!!

*figures. we booked last month lol!

It was a short 90min concert(70min+20min encore) but it was DAMN worth it. I would say, it was the best concert I've ever been to. Well, the only concert I've been to. But I know how a great concert should feel like. And it felt like this. 90mins of non-stop skanking and screaming together with Dallas and his Bro. Woot.

It was the super damn awesome first live impression they made that kept me so high during the concert. For those who know:
They played:
The Love Theme from "The Godfather".
Hinotima Jive
DOWN BEAT STOMP! (MY FAVOURITE SONG!!!)

Those were the first three songs they played. Starting out with a slow Love Theme from "The Godfather", which they later increased the pace of the song which pumped us up and start skanking.
Here's a video of the song they played in Barcelona (couldn't find the one they played at Singapore)
Click!

Next, they pumped us up with Hinotima Jive
Click!

Then, my favourite part of the intro, DOWN BEAT STOMP. I started jumping up and down the chair and skank hard with skinheads, rudees and everybody else right up infront when they played it.
MV
Live (not in sg)

ATSUSHI YANAKA :D
he's so damn cool.

-to be continued
i gtg to nat's house :D

CONTINUED! :D. Yes, that's all. I continued. It's done. :D bye!

Nah just kidding.

Went to slack around for awhile and had a drink. MAN, did we sweat like pigs.

Thon-ed at East Coast with the guys frm Express Malay Class '06

Whippin' up breakfast for the guys.
Nah, actually I wasn't. Hidayat did,
Just an excuse to finish excess butter.

Okay guys. That's all. I have nothing else to blog about. CYA!

2007-03-15T18:52:00.000+08:00

And here I am. 3am. On the computer. Playing Tremulous with Lowliu.
>)))> >)))> >)))> >)))> >)))> >)))> >)))> hours and fishes later...

Okay, now I have a phobia of big monsters the size of trees charging at you. =.=

Hmph. I would be lying if I said I can never be sad again.

Ugh, I seriously need to blab some random shit with someone.

-descry the blackhole within says:
can i say random stuff which has no meaning or link to anything at all?
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
hahah
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
go ahead
-descry the blackhole within says:
pineapple
-descry the blackhole within says:
sleeping late all the time will make you look old
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
guys die earlier than girls
-descry the blackhole within says:
guys have an extra rib bone
-descry the blackhole within says:
okay, i dunno that for sure
-descry the blackhole within says:
=.=
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
guys are fat
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
hiak
-descry the blackhole within says:
girls are fatter
-descry the blackhole within says:
eating lots of menthol kuachis will give you a lethargic feeling
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
lufti's still the kuachi man
-descry the blackhole within says:
=D you are still an aunty
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
raisins are cockroaches sun dried
-descry the blackhole within says:
prawns are undersea cockroaches
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
prawns shit
-descry the blackhole within says:
their shit gets lodged up in their head
-descry the blackhole within says:
we eat
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
we love prawn shit
-descry the blackhole within says:
prawn shit is succulent and may stupify
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
eat prawn shit with magarine
-descry the blackhole within says:
and some butter, with sweet sour sauce.
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
goes damn well with snails
-descry the blackhole within says:
and escargo. with some salt.
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
add some milk
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
eat it like a cereal
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
stir smash
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
fry
-descry the blackhole within says:
= sluggish whipped cream with breaded bits of slime
thou shalt never weigh more than thy fridge says:
hhaha

Okay at least that helped abit. Needa sleep, 4am.
WO YAO CHI YU YONG =D

2007-03-12T11:57:00.000+08:00

"liffy is dian liffy is dian liffy is dian"
Deanna, 11/03/07

2007-03-11T02:53:00.001+08:00

7 more days to:
TOKYO SKA PARADISE ORCHESTRA CONCERT.

ohmygod i cant freaking wait. i really hope they play Down Beat Stomp.
:D

HI PEOPLE! :D

2007-03-07T19:30:00.000+08:00

I got posted to Temasek Poly, Internet and Multimedia Development. The funny thing was, I really LOL-ed at the results when it appeared on the screen, and Nat was all "WHATs WRONG WITH YOU?". Mind you, that was not helping.
Well, its not that bad. The course is fine, its just the distance. It takes approx. >70 mins to get to TP from Yew Tee. And thats bloody annoying. Plus, I won't be able to hang out much with my buddies :(

Oh well, while I'm at TP, might as well appeal for a better course. Appealing for Mobile and Wireless Computing. Yes, maybe 10-20 years down the road, you can see laptop or handphone brands named after me :D
Or maybe I may own Singnet or Starhub.
Or open my own wireless service called Lufnections or smth.
LOL, ok that was super random.

I wonder who they accepted into Mass Comm through JPSAE. I mean, they don't look at our results, and I GUESSED I got the upper hand, since I have 4 CCAs and a bloody hell load of certificates and achievements, but no matter how good you are, there's always someone else better than you. Guess Marvin was right, only the creme de la creme get to go to NP MCM.

Ugh, should've applied for FSV instead. It was so damn easier and more possible to get in. Private Institutions like NAFA or La-Salle?
Hmph, give me some money then.
Its funny really, how people can get loans as much as $10k or even more for the maintenance of their car, have the money to go overseas, buy themselves unnecessary things, spend money on more unnecessary things but when someone asks them to loan for his education, let alone ask for some money to buy new things, they'll go "NO MONEY".

Oh well. No point dwelling on these matters. I should focus and try my best, whatever or wherever I go to.

Bye :D

2007-03-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

Let me start of this morning's post with a birthday shoutout to my man,
SALLY! :D

Yeah, I know, I look kinda gay.

And in return for her to blog about me, I shall blog about my crazy cousin too. :D and here, we are, 5am in the morning, bitching abt other people, talking crap and acting super vain. hahahaha.

-----
-chimerical imprecations says:
WHY ARENT WE SLEEEPING
-chimerical imprecations says:
have you blogged abt me!?
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
HAAAH
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
have YOU blogged about mee
-----
-chimerical imprecations says:
so what do you do at home everyday?rot?
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says: yes
-chimerical imprecations says:
yay. rotting rules
-chimerical imprecations says:
im rotting too
-chimerical imprecations says:
but occasionally i go out to play pool
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
HAHA
-----
-chimerical imprecations says:
"at ma kuzzie's crib in "paris".oopsie.i mean da void-deck."
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
yucks seh
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::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
cute riiiighttt
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
i knowwwwwww
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
so kiuuut
::..YouKnowYouLoveNadyaEffdee ..::"not now or forever will I ever lose you" says:
HEH
-----
(yes, she is talking about herself)

Hahaha. Oh well, its not everyday that I get to crap with my favourite cuzzy. YES YES, YOU ARE THE BEST. Nyahaha.

Pleasantly crazy. *pokes your face.

2007-02-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

I guess sometimes, we just have to unwind, let loose and have fun. Er, wait, we are doing that all the time now. Or is it just me? o.0!?
I really hope I got through for the interview for Mass Comm.
Me, a lowly 18-pointer. =(

Sigh. Well, let's just sit back and see what's coming next.
There's nothing more I can do now.

2007-02-24T11:06:00.000+08:00

This is wrong. This is SO wrong.
What have I done?

I uploaded videos of my stunts last year in Unity, and now?
The juniors are doing 'em too. Oh man, Water The Flowers.
Woohoo. Go Luffy, bad influence. Now everyone is following you.

Due to SOME KID who uploaded too many of his "stunts" to YouTube, the school administration has somehow been informed of this trend, and now I am probably the one to blame.
*Ouch my school rep.

This is not how I wanted to be remembered as. Ugh, those munchkins.

MESSAGE TO WANNABE JUNIORS
NO. You are not cool. I know it's okay to have fun. But if you wanna do you "serious" parkour/yamakasi sh*t, PLEASE, do it outside the school, poseurs. The reason I made those videos was to have some fun. I didn't go overboard like some retard who uploaded 5 or 10 videos up of himself jumping around in school.
Please, please, please, DO NOT try to act HARD. Cos' you people do look like noobs trying to act hard. Let me say this out loud:

You are NOT The Munkey.
You can NEVER be The Munkey.
You may NOT do what The Munkey did.

So run along and go create your own different little legacy if you feel like leaving a mark in the school. Don't be dragging me down and ruining my reputation.

Phew. See? I'm starting to think negative again.
*Hums "How To Save a Life" tune.
Hmph. Thats better. :D

HI EVERYONE!
BYE EVERYONE!
:D :D :D :D :D :D

2007-02-21T15:31:00.000+08:00

Can't blog.
Fever.
Phoneless.
This is so annoying.

2007-02-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

No offense to all CNY-loving people but-

THE CNY SONGS playing 24/7 at my workplace are REALLY getting on my nerves.
So much, that I have to either camp inside the bloody FREEZER(which is like, freaking below ZERO degrees), or blast my songs till my handphone battery drains out (which usually happens 3/4 through my 15hr shift).

Plus, LOSING FEELING IN YOUR FINGERS AND TOES IS NOT COOL.
NOT COOL. NOOOT COOL. NOT COOL AT ALL.
(screamed in the same way as in the no pork sound clip)

Ugh, I think I'm quitting after CNY.
I found a nicer job. :D

Oh, please flame MARK instead of me for inciting my hate for CNY.
Thank You. :D

2007-02-18T09:43:00.000+08:00

I just realized.

I can only blog emo, sad and depressing stuff. I don't know, I just feel awkward blogging about happy stuff or daily routines/events.

BUT AT LEAST IM HAPPY :D :D :D :D

Heal the world people, make it a better place.

2007-02-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES.

No, my Valentines wish this year is not for a special girl.
Nor is it for just for a person.
But it is, for all my friends that I've known in my life.
The friends who have made my life easier to live.
I love you guys.

Thank you, and enjoy your Valentines.

With Love,
Luffy

2007-02-12T17:45:00.000+08:00

Regrets, regrets and regrets.

"the point is, we shouldn't. we will learn from each and every regret and eventually, we all become better people because for the things we regretted in the first place."

"everything bad thing that comes is really a blessing in disguise for something else."

Thanks Mark.
=)

2007-02-10T19:30:00.000+08:00

WAIT.
Wait a freaking minute.
Don't give me that crap. WTF is "I don't know what I did" supposed to mean? OH WAIT, you don't even KNOW half the things you do. Yes, the world is yours, but that doesn't mean you can go around being YOU and not giving a ~~FUCK~~ about other people and their feelings.

Oh, what? What did you say? "SORRY" ? To be frank, I'm so freaking SICK of that word. You don't know what YOU did, and it seems that you DON'T even care to find out, not even ONE SMALL TINY PATHETIC EFFORT. You can't even imagine the anger, sadness, hatred and depression I went through because of your actions in the first place. Oh well, its seems SO YOU.

Yes, I guess you've realized. Lots of people are treating you differently now. It's not my intention to make them that way. You want to know why? Why everyone was still treating you right when we're still BUDDIES? Yeah, they already hated you in the first place, you're just completely oblivious to all that hidden hatred. They knew we were close, and they knew it would REALLY disappoint me if they kept shootin' at ya because FOR ALL THESE YEARS, I've been the one behind, beside and infront of you, DEFENDING your freaking reputation and trying to persuade them that you're actually a NICE GUY. I NEVER wanted anything from you. The only thing I NEEDED was to be treated the RIGHT way. Thats all.

It went fine, yes, although you're an intolerable insensitive piece of shit, it seems out of the whole school, I was the one who could actually tolerate you and your antics. Why? Because I thought you were different. For once, I had someone close enough to call a BROTHER, and I REALLY do think you are cool, although you have SUCH a shitty attitude. You were WORTH every single FREAKING BREAKDOWN I held back and endured.

Yes, it was THAT bad. But I was right though. 2 months in ACJC DID turn you to SUCH a JERK. More than I could handle, more than EVER. Fine, you have BETTER and more WORTHY friends. Friends most are JUST LIKE YOU.

You know what? I could actually see the BIG FREAKING difference between your ACJC FRIENDS and Kenn/Daniel 's SAJC FRIENDS. You should know from this comparison, which of them treats me in a decent way and which makes me feel like an inferior piece of SHIT on the floor.

Just to refresh you memory, let me ask.
"Did you have fun at JJC jackass?"

Let me remind you that I made a promise to you last time, and I intend to keep it.
I'm not a jerk.
Expect an envelope at your mailbox at the end of this month.

Oh, and also CONGRATULATIONS on your 6 distinctions.
I would be so damn proud of you now, but I hate you too much to even do that.
You are indeed, ACJC MATERIAL.

Good Luck then, and have fun without me in your life.
I made up my mind, and nothing's gonna change it.
Goodbye.

2007-02-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

Let it be official.
That today, I denounce any ties with you.
Welcome to hell jackass.

I've decided what to do with my new life. I'm quitting rugby for good and taking up a new sport/hobby. I still have my rock-climbing, and I'm thinking of joining Rudy at Ngee Ann Poly in Skating. It's been VERY long since I've worn skates. I've skated from K1 to Primary 6, 8 years, and when secondary school started, I stopped skating, cos' I outgrew them, and I only skated that time for fun. I skated alone most of the time. I don't know why, but I always seem to find myself doing very different things from the people around me.

I snuck out 2 nights ago. I know I could get in a hell lot of trouble if my mom found out, but I just can't be bothered. I needed to sit alone and think. It was 2am. No one was around. The only people I saw were just taxi drivers.

I stared through the grill fence of the mrt station. I started to think about my life since Sec 1. Yeah, its kinda short, 4 years, but these 4 years have made me into the person I am now. I could still remember our laughter, our cries and the conversations we all had. I remembered every little thing I did with everyone. Although many you guys already forgot, I still do remember. Memories too sweet to let go.

Just got back just now from the new court at Yew Tee. Met with Daryl and Bao Xiang, and had very long conversations about our lives.
Seriously speaking, I'm very proud of the person Daryl has grown to become. Although its too late now because O levels have ended, he really has changed. He's grown to be someone more matured than last year. He knows his mistakes in life and he really cares about his family and his friends. I don't know whether he'll read this, but if he does, all I want to say is I'm proud of you man. Thanks for being there.

2007-02-06T15:20:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/v/pFq1iDAzvN4

No tabs. No scores. No reference. No planning.
Just 10 years of playing.

2007-02-06T09:20:00.000+08:00

My classmate. My friend. My best friend. My teammate. My buddy.
My brother.

Goodbye.

Hello Jackass.

2007-02-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

The facts.

It had to hurt me.

I made a promise. I intend to keep it.

But now, everything's just so damn freaking hard.

I'll just ruin their mood or bore them.

I guess all I need is for Poly term to start earlier.

I can't stand another day like this.

Yeah. I'd be lying if I said I moved on.

'Cos I just can't.

Oh, btw

I HATE YOU, IDIOTS.

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Now, on a more positive page.

Let me show you guys a video. Quite a sadistic video. Don't worry, there's no one dying or getting hurt.

It's just my definition of "Hashing"
HASHBROWN-SMASHING.

Ok, lameness aside. On to more official stuff.

http://mat-erialistic.blogspot.com
Vital Information on Mats. I'm just helping to advertise. =)

Ok, now, leave me alone. I'm going to keep to myself for the remaining days till O Level results are released.
Tomorrow is JJC's Carnival. I really don't feel like going anymore. I'm just so damn pissed and in a really horrible mood. The reason I did away my tag-board? Well, I realized that nobody ever gives constructive comments. I doubt anyone's REALLY reading all this crap anyway. So now, it's not Luffy's blog anymore. It's Luffy's journal. LOL. Ugh, I sound so desperate for attention.

I really feel like putting a password for my blog to keep away FAMILY MEMBERS, so I can type more personal issues and also stuff they should not know about. Hmph, it's just so damn hard to get a little privacy around here.

2007-01-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

Oh man. I've been having a mental block for the past weeks and really can't find anything in my mind to pick on. Hmph, must be due to the fact that I just emptied and refreshed it of unnecessary things to think about and remember. Like other people's problems, for instance. I just can't be bothered anymore. But in the first place, WHY BOTHER? No one's asking you to listen. No one cares your the self-imposed stress that you're going through. Well, lets just say that I just took the Councilor Card out of play and reshuffled it back into the deck.

I watched Tiramisu's last episode again last week, and I still can't stop feeling so DAMN emo. Tiramisu. Sweet memories, as if they happened yesterday, raced through my mind every single time I hear that word. I remembered last time, when we were shopping, and decided to take take a rest in front of Courts, and we ended up sitting down, watching the first episode. We would talk about the show, fill each other up on what was missed and every week, go " TIRAMISU IS ON NOW, OMG, QUICK GO WATCH".
Unfortunately, although how similar we felt the storyline was to us, the show ended totally opposite of how we ended.
Hmph, I better stop before I start rambling about this again.

It's funny how people who don't really know me, have the most outrageous assumptions of the type of person I am.
But at the same time, it's REALLY funny how people who know me very well, still don't understand the type of person I am, what annoys me, what I like and what are my preferances. Maybe I just give in too much to people. I remembered once, last time when I was small, getting a fortune ticket from a fortune-telling machine at some arcade. Yeah, I know, it's all crap. But what I got was something like "You can understand people blabla put others first blabla" shit. I was small then, so it all sounded like shit to me, so I regretted not using the token to play Time Crisis again.
I know I put nicknames like " I HATE PEOPLE" and have mood-swings all the time, saying I'm not going to be nice anymore or all that shit, but there's always that part of me, holding back the anger and explosion that I OH SO NEED TO RELEASE. I think if I could put them in a missle, it'll turn into a nuclear missle. LOL. Ok, lame.

Maybe I just feel so insecure.
Maybe I feel that everyone's been taking me for granted.
Maybe I tend to put others too much in front of myself.
Well, maybe that's the reason I am happy. I don't really mind having to give in to demands or during certain situations. For me to be happy, is for you to be happy, and that's what matters I guess. Seriously speaking, I really do feel that warm feeling inside, knowing that I just made someone's day.
I guess this is my purpose then. My role.
Ok then.

Have a nice day everyone. =)

2007-01-30T00:15:00.000+08:00

Voices abandoned me
Feeling sorry for the things
You can't control

Give it up
It says
They're not coming back

Move on
To greater things
Leave it all behind

.

My mind
A room coloured charlaton
In, hid a safe

For no one knows, no
For no one to know
The darkness it held

The maelstorm awakens
Now burn.

2007-01-28T17:01:00.000+08:00

=)

I think I've just figured out a way to de-stress and release my emo emo thoughts.
TOLERATE LESS.
And it's been working quite well, at the expense of other people's feelings.

BBQ was nice today. =)

O LEVEL RESULTS.
I really don't know what to say.
But, I REALLY want to go to Ngee Ann Poly.
I REALLY WANT to get into MASS COMM.
If I can't, FSV(Film,Sound,Video) is nice too.

If I do get into either of these, I'll be SUPER happy.

Oh, and the CCAs.
I promised myself to get better at rock-climbing this year, so I can't wait to join Rock-Climbing so I won't be climbing alone anymore. Ugh, pathetic right?
And OBC!!!!!
Outward Bound Club.

Rugby in Poly? Ugh, no thanks. I guess I'll join some rugby club outside.

2007-01-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

Oh please please please please please.
DON'T let it rain tomorrow.

Because there's gonna be a helluva paintball match.

2007-01-20T12:56:00.000+08:00

Just changed to Mozilla Firefox.
Its so nice.
I'm using a simper blogskin, so all you lovelies out there won't lag so much.
Changed embed music files from mp3 to wma, cos' I think mp3s causes lags.
Can't wait for paintball match on Sunday.
I'm so ready to go back to work. Should stop taking off days.
MASS COMM MASS COMM.
Ok, bye.

2007-01-19T16:22:00.000+08:00

My mood is fine, but I just have this desire to blog something depressing. Oh, wait, its not fine anymore. It seems to be all torn up inside. Hmph, mood swings. I've been having too much of 'em lately. Maybe because I don't really have someone to help me calm down. But yeah, there are people who do entertain me, people like Mark or Wei Arng. But that's different. They're different. They can't be there all the time. I mean, it's hard knowing that the only person who really understood you and could really calm you down is now thousands of miles away in another continent.

The coolant to my blaze.
The wind to my haze.

Ah, just call it what you want. I'm just so depressed now.

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The blade, unsheathed
It penetrates deep
Blood trickles down
The heart

There is no guard
From this poison dart
Which causes our hopes
To part

To stand up tall
A mighty feat
A burden we could not
Carry

For our courage
Has long gone
Beneath our feet
They lay buried

When fury comes
We flap our gums
Blame the world
For our problems

Now she's gone
My heart, still torn
Missing her words
Beautiful adornments.

2007-01-17T15:34:00.000+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYY!!
Today was the BEST BIRTHDAY I EVER HAD.
SPECIAL THANKS TO THESE PEOPLE( in order of wishes) :

deannaMonster

sarahMMM
amalinaPimples
dinahDino
jannahShorty
zonaFan
kendrickKendy
denisePigu
cellySally
kennethLEOW
yelynBuglyn
wei arngDood
NATCAT
Bros and sis
chantelGal
dallasBABA
jeremiahAmiah
jieyongLocalGod
euniceNICE
dannySenior
sitiShity
cuz aif
efd cuzzy
sirhanHAN
nutNad
michelleMuffins
markCHENG
danielAHBAO

well, thats all that I can remember. Thanks to everyone who made my 17th birthday the best birthday ever. =)
And also, to Denise,Deanna,Celly,Nat and Kenneth who threw me a surprise mini-party even though some of them were tired and sick after school. I'm so super touched, thanks guys. =)

random pic

okay, my neck hurts. I wanna rest. cya!

2007-01-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

With these monsters blasting the heat out of your ass, no wonder you'll get crazy in the cold room. All thanks to MULLER freeze-your-ass-out fans.

Symtomps of Freezer Madness:

Loud zhao sia voice
Inability to speak properly
Arul grade singing
Excessive flow of vulgarities
Loss of feeling in toes,ears or other limbs
Abuse of cardboard boxes and forzen food.

Sometimes, when things get too sian, we could always use our brains and think of something we can do with penknives and cardboard boxes.
As shown below.

Who knows. I could be the new Giant mascot. =)

2007-01-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

Torches

We lay them on the floor
One by one
Never too many to carry

We feel the warmth searing
Through our gears, they keep us moving
The promise, to keep the fires burning

As it pours
We bring them together
Never once we were alone
When it shines
We burn our brightest
And we fight the winds that were blown

We come together
To ignite each other
And combine our flames in glee
When we drop
We pick up for each other
And rekindle our problems free

Alas
This could not
Go on forever
What was strong
Was brought down by error

The flames extinguish
One by one
Hearts cry out in anguish

For the promise has been broken
By new chapters that have opened
Defilers of the circle, t'was their bidding

Smoldering charred placements
Whats left of the arrangements
Remains of the sacred flame

Refugees, victims and survivors
Outcasts, no, fighters
We perservere and carry our torches high

For we honour the sacred flame
As we spread to those we attain
To complete, the circle again

If you do understand what I'm trying to say here, you should know how upset it is to go through something like this. A flame promised to be kept burning shouldn't just be left to die out by itself.You don't need to kill a flame to feed a new one.

2007-01-11T04:28:00.000+08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Indeed, VERY DEPRESSING! =(
while I'm at it, might as well...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANNAH! =D
I look screwed. =X. haha.

2007-01-10T18:30:00.000+08:00

Hmph, whats up with blogger? Can't access it just now, and some other blogs too.
Luckily mine's still up. Oh well, let's start.

Firstly, I would like to apologise to all the people I've kinda annoyed the past few weeks with all my rambling about how the world screwed up my life and all. I just need someone to tell all this to okay? It kinda helps if you share your problems with others, and with who better to than the good friends around you. If you don't wanna hear them, please DO tell me. It's okay, I'll stop. =).

Yeah, as I've told some people countless times, my job is screwed up. But after a full week working there, I realized its not too bad. I made quite a few friends there.

This funny indian dude Chandran with his never ending zhao sia-ed voice and nagging.
Kim Jun, kinda cool. Very laid-back, but he does get the job done all the time.
Kian Tiong from Ngee Ann Poly, works Sats and Suns. He looks kinda decent, but the first word you're probably gonna hear from him is "CHEEBYE!". It is the universal word there you know. Haha.
Ahmad, big guy from Bukit Batok Sec. Plays Rugby too, and for Bedok Kings. Don't meet him much, different shifts everytime.
Boon Leong, pretty quiet and kinda stern. Has a sian aura around him. Speaks so damn soft.
And my HOD(Head of Department), Ken. He's abit bald and probably the nicest Head you can ever have there, no pun intended.

And I work in the Frozen/Dairy Department, in a -16degree freezer. Most of you probably have known that by now, through one of my never-ending ramblings.

Other than turning me into a GIANT(lol), working there did teach me how hard it is to earn money. I used to spend money all the time, not caring about the sweat and blood my parents have sacrificed working. I guess I should start pitching in to help pay our household bills now, since my older bro's gonna leave us soon after he gets married next year.
I can't help but feel so rotten, spoilt and bad last time.
Sorry Mom.

It's 2am. I'm getting sleepy.
Nights everyone. Have a nice day, everyday. =)

2007-01-08T17:22:00.000+08:00

There's always a time when you'll find yourself alone. Then you start to think. Friends..Family.. basically, Life. Flashbacks of past memories starts to fill your mind. By yourself, alone, you smile, you frown, cry and even laugh. You know people might think you are crazy, but who are they to judge? For that time being, you're in that happy/depressing place in your mind.

You remembered something funny and and quickly spin to your right to tell someone you thought was there, only to be greeted by empty seats. You look away, disappointed at your mind, taking advantage of the moment you're having by playing tricks on you. You see lights. Then, it hits you. Isn't there supposed to be someone beside you?
You ponder on that thought. The longer you do, the more lost you feel.

A shoulder to lie on?
Or just a voice to respond?
Some coolant for your blaze?
Or is this all just a phase?

Yeah. Tell that to yourself. You will grow out of this sick feeling.
But you just can't help but stare at your own reflection and feel really sorry for yourself.

Day by day, your poor little heart gets pummeled by depressing thoughts and musings. You start to feel emotionally vulnerable and feel down everytime a certain topic gets discussed or during a certain event. You tell yourself, its supposed to be a happy occasion, but you just can't close that floodgate completely just by saying that. I wonder where did the engineer go..

You try to see whats wrong with yourself. Nothing's wrong. The only thing missing is that big chunk someone took from your heart. And you wonder. Did she really take it? Or is she just playing around with it? And your thoughts start to crumble into little bite-size pieces of possibilities and assumptions.

You find life too empty. Like an empty beaker or a hollow coconut. A thought hits you, and it keeps buzzing in your cranium. You get a job, thinking that doing some work and earning some money will help improve your emotional health(is there such a thing?). But seems that you got the wrong job, and the stress doubles.

You become emotionally unstable and your mental health deteriorates. You get migraines and headaches, and don't get enough sleep, since you spend the night away thinking and thinking.

A sign buzzes on the ceiling. "EXIT". It's locked. You knock and knock as hard as you can, your last desperate attempts to escape this madness. And finally, someone opens.

He gives you a hand, gesturing you to come with him into the light.
You smile and instantly, other smiles start to pop up from the brightness.
A figure goes up to you and gives you the most heart-warming hug you ever felt.

Safe now, with good friends.

Its 2007. Make way for new memories, but please do cherish the old ones.
Love everything and everyone. You will be loved.

2006-12-29T15:04:00.000+08:00

COMPUTER BROKE DOWN.
IM DEAD AND ROTTING.
PLEASE CONTINUE TAGGING.
LOVE LOVE LOVE =)
LUFFY.

2006-12-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

PHOTO ON POPULAR DEMAND Han+Bao

If you don't know what they are, fyi, they are FHM poker cards.

Btw, I'm doing this under the request of HAN. I don't take embarrasing photos and post them without permission okay. =)

The Infamous BENG me. XD

My hairstylist is cute. =D

Seriously, I kinda liked that hair colour. But my mom would probably be waiting for me with a shaver if I did come home with that.

Replies:

HAN: Hahahaha. DONE.

Bao: EH. Who's the one reading FHM??? haha.

Danial: 2 pieces? naw, im ok with that. thx!

Lee: haha, ok.

Kendrick: YES KENDY?

Aries: well, it wasnt easy to persuade her.

Mark: hey im no mat!!! haha.

SuHui: Heyaa!!!

Nat: You're an asshole. As always. =D